reflection

spent the whole dae thinking what exactly i am going to do the remaining of the holis..
how am i going to spent the hard-earned pay
i need to sacrifice for building fund
and i also feel like just buying more new clothes
but the first comes first
he's the one that provided me with this job..i can always trust Him for the rest
thgt about how relationships with people has been for me
many times i tell myself...not to fall back into the same trap of love
but i always do otherwise
stupid dupid me
i can't control my emotions i know
i am flicker
but always i know i'll never commit anything that God doesn't want me to go into
truthfully
i need someone that's there with me....that's have the same belief as me
that love the God i do
i am not discriminating the rest but i can't help..God play such an important role in my life
if u love my God...
why are all these so complicated
perharps..i am not mature enough to handle all these
my past experiences can account for that
but silently i hope i'll meet that special one
love can't be rushed i know
it might hurt innocent friends of mine...i am utterly sorry sorry
but i dun want the hurt to grow even deeper
when did i end up thinking like this...i dun noe
but now i only want true friends..other than that i have no plans..and might never have plans..before God moves me to
i m takin a laidback attitude
God please have your way in me..
i have let ur name down...and i dun want history to repeat itself..