Sunday, July 29, 2007

fulfilling wk of 2007




















the to be completed shanghai financial tower....
been waiting to see its final look for ages
its outer glass panel looks woah:)
ok back to the week
oh ya..haven upload much pics for a long time
















just pop by to take a shot with wanz
before heading for special ministry..
can really say this time i felt something struggling within so strongly
God let me guard my heart, thoughts and deeds please
let me not fall back into the same old deep hole and waste all this effort
really felt so free after..
backtracking..
sat was first time exp at children church tuition
the kids are real cute..hyperactive..but yet i was really touched by them
i m finally at what i m called to work for..
sat nite was chill out time with joseph
holland v's perfect for that..with a nice coffee..as usual again..
ok time to pack bag again..
hope that i be blessed with a nite out tml!
haha..

[there are many people that come and go in my life..sometimes all that happen so fast even without me realising some had changed..and that no matter how wow friendship in the past was...its probably forgotten..sad but that's life]

Monday, July 23, 2007

sick...stuffed...cooped up

my long long weekend just comes and goes...going..and gone!
haha...but i m grateful for it.
met up with so many people..then joseph's present for me, a simple but effective schedule planner might be the best gift yet..
sorry kok seng!shouldn't have promised that i'll be meeting u to celebrate your bdae..
anyway..happy bdae!:) thanks for being that joy always amidst the dullest moments in life
finally went to see a real doctor today..after attempting to struggle n fight horrendous flu coupled with endless phlegm..haa..ok shall skip the explicit details..
but now the cough syrup's making me all drowsy..
God please heal me!
having just lots of mixed ideas and thoughts running through my mind now
oh ya..thank you all my dear friends for the gifts and wishes for my bdae..really appreciate it!
know that i m going back in camp in less than an hour time..
and i m dreading it
wanna go and fast forward time
wanna do the things i like..just sitting on my table..drawing..buildings..skyscrapers..houses..bridges..whatever..listening to my fav music on my player..just not like schedule planned run my life..and live a 'mindless' everyday
hmm..maybe its just that everyone else is starting school and i m feeling so envious..
well that day would come eventually..
haha..before we get to start carving out our dream..we yearn and say we would do everything we can to make it come to pass..
but when we're actually doing it..we wanna give up so easily..so ironic..
ok i've typed enough mindless thoughts..
bye

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

love the one u hate?

love your enemies...
the simplest to say but yet always the hardest to do..
haha...guess most people wont know who i m referring to
but its just that old man in camp
gosh..think bout him
i feel so turned off..
well..perhaps he just destroyed my hopes of having a peaceful first birthday in camp
hai..but at least i can still come home and typed it all out..
how i wish i could get out of this messed up environment n head for school
at least i can choose what i wanna do and put in my best..
being back home can mean so much to me now..
seeing that my loved ones round me care for me..
shower me with the love others cant make up for.
i need to remember all these n treasure them lots =)
anyway a big thank you to all friends for bdae wishes..
haha..although i m feeling a little unwell with flu n cough..plus a extra gift of blue-black on my leg after a flag weight of almost a tonne whacked my leg..
i still feel grateful
God please help me to be different n not condemn those that everyone else cant find a reason to love or care about..

Friday, July 6, 2007

the deep within

a month just crept by in a flash...its already july now
june has probably been the most simple but yet troubling month of my ns life
though there wasnt much outfield or hated fast marches
all the new lessons seem to open my views bout ns to a new world
especially having to run so often..and 2.4 is suppose to be like chicken feet now
aft so much long dist running
but intially
i hated all the running..but after all that trainings
thank God that he brought me through so much and i m stronger than ever
sometimes i would be grateful that i m placed at this time, place and situation such that God's ultimate masterplan seem to be such a comfort to me
whenever i m out in green lands..all fully soaked in sweat..questioning myself the purpose of all this shit
he just gently reminds me he's in control..and that all things would work out right for those who love him
all these low valleys make me realized the importance and how awesome He is to me
must we all go through rough patches to learn to appreciate n to love?i m sure there's more than one way to do so
hope that my eg will encourage all those that is ready to give up..
perservere on and u'll see the glimpse of light burning amidst the darkness