my not so smooth going mth of ns

well...in continuation to my past entry..things still seem a little lost for me
or should i say i m still feeling lost as to how i can just screwed up so much stuff around
not considering the money i've already lost by paying my salary off to the owner for its overpriced items
oh..my samsung mp3 player finally here..still pretty fascinated by its sound quality and its touch buttons though they can be rather retarded at times..
its a real worthwhile deal i can say
shall post the pic again














pretty!
ok enough bout the tech stuff.
been feeling real frustrated bout things lately....
like the people around me sometimes seem like they dun understand what u gotta go through week after week
how your life just revolve around a regime..and that u practically have no control over when u wanna go out and what u wanna do
i m like sandwiched in the middle..
ahhhh!
all these feelings just kinda exploded within me when i shatter my bunk window today
sounds unbelievable but i caused it
crazy me.
even i passed by dover mrt today..cant help but recall how my life would be as a student..
carrying that little bag skipping along off to home after a long tiring day cramping lecture info into my mind(provided i m awake)..haha
and the endless tutorials that were waiting to be done
life seem so much simpler than..
must we all experience the complexity of life as we grow up?..
silly as it may sound..guess i m still in transition stage
gotten two preloaded songs of SGwannabe and sung si kyung inside the player
real nice songs
tonite's off supposed to be for me come home and enjoy some family company with mooncakes..but things turned out to be i m in my room doing my stuff
feel so guilty for bursting out at them
i need a good rest man..to cure my short term memory and my carelessness

reminded that even as i go through the fires in life..
i need to pray not that the fires be put out but that the fires will melt away all the flaws n impurities within me..
make me purer..=)