when i seem to say "i cant go on"

the name was spoken..the consequences were clear..
i didnt expect it
i left
cold the nite suddenly seem..extreme sadness gripped me..
i respect the decision but i m human..
looking backing..i would definitely feel that hurt rising from deep within
my mp3 silently accompanied me..even as waves fof disappointment coz of this and wondering "if i did so badly" hits me
no will to move on..
but i have to..can i?..
the four walls seem to be moving on...yes i know enlarge..but i have lost all forms of strength to do that now..
8 hours have passed and the feeling ever so strong..
its just something i m passionate about
let a miracle come before its all too late