a deeper sense of longing...

my past week just flew by with all the pos trainings...and though i am really challenged physically..coz i m so darn tired now...but yet...i have found something that i can bring on in my life
that is why in the first place there is a God..and why i chose him and trust Him..i m enlarging my capacity
many times i m so drained from sch and all that by the time i reach the place for training..i m half dead..not in the mood to interact or to perfect my moves...hahas..but i really messed up some of them
i realized i lack something in my life
received a call the other day...that didnt exactly make the nite a good one
sometimes i do wonder what others are expecting..maybe its just because they're not me..so they won't understand what i have to go through.."no matter how hard they say they do"
made me reflect my past few years in ministry what have i done..have i progressed?..
life's gettin complicated with so many commitments..but i m no longer the one that just bow down to difficulties and trials..been through lots
fri's service and pst phil msg explained all these
i need to pray alot more...
my quiet time has been diminishing...and my mood been like going from normal..to slightly lower and now a little cranky
yucks..ewww i dun like this feeling
ok no more procrastination gonna start the prayer life going..thank God for keeping me most of the time awake during service..i was silently saying to God i m too tired..please just take me to heaven..but obviously its not the time yet..
issac please jiayou too?...we're not running this race alone..we got all the brothers n sisters under his family no matter how not close we might seem...
our hearts are for each other..
my life's been segregating into smaller bits and pieces..

Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under heaven"
thank you for this promise that never changes that u're always under control whatsoever the circumstances

todae's sat which means its time to stay home to catch up on work..miss my friends in school..but will just see them on mon..the long lost family time is also todae..hahas..wierd but i miss my mom n dad..together with my bros..
i m stepping out and breaking through..