emergiee

hahas...well time flies..and looking back for the past months..
i can only say "thank you God for being faithful"
i have really grown alot through this period...like learning to manage lots of tasks and commitments
getting used to talking to different groups of people in a day
go through some dry and lonely patches without friends here n there
hahas..just came home..and wanted to try to practice more for dance..
okies..look kinda funny
glad my mom didnt laugh..hahahas
met jeanie for lunch at long john...yeah..
haven like meet up like this for a long long time..hahas
its like two more days to emerge..and truthfully i cant contain the excitement within
pos really gets more totally "cant stop the beat"
all i can say is that after each training..though i m worn out..
i still feel fuller in my heart..like as i just had a faith enlargement..=)
anyway..take care krystal tang..if u're gonna read this...rest well..pray and we're gonna make things happen on 1st june
looking forward the holis..i can see that its really packed..emerge.zoo..chalet..lessons..and all that
woo hoo..but makes me anticipate even more
time to pray up..read up his Word...and get stronger

hahas...at many times..its inevitably to feel kinda not understood..no matter what i do and think or say..friends...
perharps...its really normal for pple to come...close..and then draw away..its not within my control i guess
though its really terrible or should i say gross to feel so clearly avoided..i have yet to know what's exactly wrong..
missed out todae's clique outing..but guess the clique still had fun
for karmen:
remember no matter your friends are always here for u...
though at many times the way we care is being expressed
we all love you...
all humans are not perfect..we do commit that mistakes
but whats more important is to pick yourself up...renew your mind..
and wow..u're coming on stronger than before..never looking back..
whats done now is better than being hidden for later which will hurt even more
and i pray that your friendship..will be pure..and true friends' love
yup nitez
sorrie for making you wait..

tml's last preview..meeting donovon in the morn...buy WHITE shoes..ahhas
see ya pple

when i seem to say "i cant go on"

the name was spoken..the consequences were clear..
i didnt expect it
i left
cold the nite suddenly seem..extreme sadness gripped me..
i respect the decision but i m human..
looking backing..i would definitely feel that hurt rising from deep within
my mp3 silently accompanied me..even as waves fof disappointment coz of this and wondering "if i did so badly" hits me
no will to move on..
but i have to..can i?..
the four walls seem to be moving on...yes i know enlarge..but i have lost all forms of strength to do that now..
8 hours have passed and the feeling ever so strong..
its just something i m passionate about
let a miracle come before its all too late

a deeper sense of longing...

my past week just flew by with all the pos trainings...and though i am really challenged physically..coz i m so darn tired now...but yet...i have found something that i can bring on in my life
that is why in the first place there is a God..and why i chose him and trust Him..i m enlarging my capacity
many times i m so drained from sch and all that by the time i reach the place for training..i m half dead..not in the mood to interact or to perfect my moves...hahas..but i really messed up some of them
i realized i lack something in my life
received a call the other day...that didnt exactly make the nite a good one
sometimes i do wonder what others are expecting..maybe its just because they're not me..so they won't understand what i have to go through.."no matter how hard they say they do"
made me reflect my past few years in ministry what have i done..have i progressed?..
life's gettin complicated with so many commitments..but i m no longer the one that just bow down to difficulties and trials..been through lots
fri's service and pst phil msg explained all these
i need to pray alot more...
my quiet time has been diminishing...and my mood been like going from normal..to slightly lower and now a little cranky
yucks..ewww i dun like this feeling
ok no more procrastination gonna start the prayer life going..thank God for keeping me most of the time awake during service..i was silently saying to God i m too tired..please just take me to heaven..but obviously its not the time yet..
issac please jiayou too?...we're not running this race alone..we got all the brothers n sisters under his family no matter how not close we might seem...
our hearts are for each other..
my life's been segregating into smaller bits and pieces..

Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under heaven"
thank you for this promise that never changes that u're always under control whatsoever the circumstances

todae's sat which means its time to stay home to catch up on work..miss my friends in school..but will just see them on mon..the long lost family time is also todae..hahas..wierd but i miss my mom n dad..together with my bros..
i m stepping out and breaking through..

i am just down
u left me with a note without a sound
u nver know u know how much i have been around
how my heart just frowns when u're down
i'll be your teddy bear
i'll be your clown
i'll take you round and around
if u dont mind i can be your standing ground
even if that means i drown