a week just flew by without me actually realizing it.

but to be able to just sit here out in the living room..with my own laptop blogging

i can only say that it seems like a simple dream of yesterday..

so i m just so grateful that dad agreed to purchase it this sat..

hah..even though i m not free-loading..n is already bonded to a three year contract with him..

haha..only i could be paying back installments for a laptop over such a long period of time

anyway..vista's interface is way cool..haven lag once since i start using it

(perhaps reason being its still empty on programs n memory consuming files)

simple happiness:)

other than the blessing.

the past two weeks in camp can be considered as the best two weeks of army life i guess

able to stay out everyday...enjoying the food n company of the civilian world..to the extent i wished we would just stayed in for a couple of days n spare my minute allowance

oh well..to summarise a stayout wouldnt be all that great without pals n friends like becca n zak..
n the meet up with debs after a 'century long'

hurray TOASTBOX!:)
"how much longer are u gonna wander away from my presence?"

i felt that tugging at me throughout the two prayer meets that i attended

its time to step back into his will..

sentosa's sand salt water n sea!!we're coming on thurs..haha

my post ns state of mind

managed to book out of camp real early today..
but the train ride back from yishun took a good 40 minutes
just make my desire to get the license n drive a bike, car...anything..around
i will definitely not miss the peak hour crowds
congrats shit bag, pls drive safely!hah
having a tad more free time this week really set me thinking..
now that i m in ns..things around seem kinda foreign..the projects that the poly people are cooped up with..the sem exams all the girls in uni are always worrying about
all that seems so distant
think my not intellectual mind have gone into a half-shut down mood..
thats scary
been trying to read up about current affairs whenever i can get my hands on newspapers.
n attempting to watch more tv..(not just all the dramas n entertainment prog of course)
haha
guess that i should feel more fortunate when i m out on the weekend, as compared to my friends around..at least i dun have to worry about unfinished works, never-ending project meetings to go for..n upcoming exams that are zapping away all the good mood to relax.
while i just head back camp every sun..to do rountine activities that depends little on brainpower.
always wanted to borrow more architecture books n start drawing more often
but more than often i am just not in the mood..and procrastination prevails..lazy me
life is definitely not just a party i am certain
tml's vday..but i would be celebrating it as the no-lovers day with my army pals.
as they all named it that way..haha
not the usual vday..but it's sure better than to spend it all alone.
the past 3 days reminded me that it aint that easy to forget, let go n let things resume its normal state.but i just have to try harder.

my four long days of extended weekend cny break is over!wonder why time always fly by when its rest and holiday..
hah..probably just the mindset that i take
okie..some pic record of chu yi and chu er..
of me n my bro before we head out to pai nian.



















first day:)




















my brothers love to give wierd faces
hah

















cny would never be the same if it had not ended with your besties
they're really my life support..through the toughest n the happiest moments
cheers.
ok the ns portal is seriously irritating.forever not recognising my password..no matter how many million times..maybe it doesnt want me to find out that i m still underpaid..haha
okie..looking forward to this two weeks of course..
can stay out!
:)

xin nian chu yi

woah..today's xin nian chu yi!
probably the best day in the whole cny calender.
started off with going to the usual places like dad's side family
then to visit my grandpa's grave...brought everyone a little emotional relief n perhaps some encouragement
then off to the more interactive place.mom's family
things didnt turn out awkward or anything...n it was rather good family time
but felt that as i grew older..the words grew lesser
maybe just that i dun really feel that festive mood that strongly since i m in ns
hah..tired 12% red wine..n i turned red almost immediately
just proves that i cant drink..seriously
haha..looking forward to the next two days.
gathering at jy's house with the other army guys...then sat spend with my great buddies.
cny aint gonna be such a bore after all
know i have to make a decision pretty soon.but my heart is really torn between both sides.
is it all wrong to like someone...i wonder.
that izak teh is off to malaysia collecting hongbaos..after all his failed attempts to meet up with us...time to question him when he's back..haha
ok a random pic update!
nite out with church pals at mos.the most decent pic i would say amidst all the other unglam dancing poses n red faces..hah:)

no one, the way you

who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told.
if there's a soulmate for everyone.
just that sometimes it aint as easy as it might seem
perhaps..most people just dun understand

happy lunar new year guys n gals..gong xi fa cai:)