even as the days pass by.
things around taking place at such a fast rate.
my head is spinning.
i just wanna go away.
to somewhere far away.
with nothing on my mind.
well the truth is i m just days away from it.
must hang in there.

the images of the week that have came and gone.
heartwarming reunions.
intriguing moments.
life is great when u're able to do the things that u have interest in.
and being able to stay out late for the weekend.
:)
oh well.still.nothing beats a good holiday

for the past three weeks.
ever since i've started working.
life has took on a 180 degrees turn
suddenly everything seems to be so fast paced.
found myself constantly having to reply endless sms-es..calls.
whatsoever
or has the past one year ten month converted me into a non-civilian?
i really wonder
perhaps life as it is now..is really very different..and at times demanding.
both mentally and physically.
i need a good long break..
time to relax and breathe in the fresh air.
slowly sensing that the busyness of life has started to take a toll on my mind
became increasing absent-minded.
gosh
frustrated..at my own self.
oh boy

God please come and guide the footsteps of my path
give me strength
and enlarge my capacity.
"who's hands are these..holding my trapeze.."

i have no idea what possessed me to delete my whole "my documents"
i am in total state of lost now.

ahhh!
oh well.better go sleep.

there are certain things and people in life that once you missed them
you would never be able to get them
just like the way he or she or it has been..
life's like that.
its time to accept the truth, learnt from the mistake and move on.

really in a real and desperate need for cash
gotta blame it on that fire that burnt up all my valuables.
ahh.

ok forgotten to upload the pictures.
so here they are.
delicious bimbimbap from harbourfront foodcourt
yummy!

ok the rest of the pictures are all taken at my distant uncle's wedding on sat nite.
been years since i've attended a wedding.
was really looking forward to it:)

grandma:)

My cousins!...the pic's a little blurry though

my mom n aunts.
can't believe they started the photo taking craze
hahaha




my youngest bro :)
my family
love every single one of them.

PS: i hereby declare that WC Lim is the official chief editor of my blog.

the first week of work..

a learning experience

the first time u have to live off what u're actually work hard to earn

finally understood the pinch of spending excessively.

it's time to repent!

haha

thankfully the colleagues are a friendly bunch

always warm n nice

guiding me in picking up the skills that i would require in my job

despite having to stare at the com screen for majority of the time..

work is pretty interesting..:)

i need a new phone v badly...the random "emergency call only"

is really AHHH! a SOS call for a blessing.

"life is full of uncertainties, so don't fix your mind on what i should do tomorrow, next week or the next month, etc. but instead let things flow, and seek after His directions."

guess this song really relates to me now.
failed my first TP! :(
although i wanted to come home and start shooting off at the lousy, ill mannered tester.
realized there isn't much of a point.
oh well.just have to book the next test date.
i really don't understand why he had to fail me for not giving way to a car which was still a distance away.
ahhh!perhaps i am just out of his maximum quota.
oh well.
what a waste of cash.

darn..actually typed out a whole entry on my ord day in order to commerate it.
but after inserting some pictures, all the text went missing..ahh!
ok..i'll try to recollect what i've wrote..in this entry.
anyway today's day 2 as a civilian..

the top five things that i miss the most
1) wake up at 8am? (if i want to)
2) use my camera phone
3) listen to my mp3 anytime of the day
4) surfing the net everyday
5) cut my hair when its really getting in the way.

there's really so many more things i can mention.the list would just drag on endlessly
haha.
but looking back..through the times of pain and joy.
from the first day that i dragged my bag to camp, when everyone's new
till the time we were posted out.and now we've become so closely bonded
i really can't imagine how the past 1 year 6 months would be like without the friends around.
would definitely miss how everyday we would wake each other up.
how we would run to beat the queue to shower.
the routine night's off to causeway point.the macs deliveries
the nicknames we have for one another.
not including the names i've had.hah
blah blah blah..

pray that we would all stay in contact for a long long time.
oh yes.goodbye to beloved camou cream for now.

oh well.this is a random entry.
i've gotten a job..at ntu!:)
praise God!
super near home..starting next monday.
looking forward to a positive working experience.

driving test is on tomorrow early morning
guys and girls please stay away from the bukit batok area.
hahah..i must try my best to pass.
can't afford for a re-test..

and lastly.still can't decide which phone should i get.
already more or less decided that i would want a nokia e-series phone.
but the big n bulky, good batt life e71


or the smaller, prettier but weaker batt life e66?

thank you God for your constant provision.
for being faithful even though i might be faithless at times.
"Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, but a good word makes it glad"

I AM GOING TO LEAVE HOUSE AND COLLECT MY IDENTIFICATION OF FREEDOM.
THE PINK IC..AHHHH!

it has been four days into my supposedly 'rest week'
hmm
but somehow..i seem to be doing everything else but resting
booking in and out of camp.to do spring cleaning.
well at least for the last time :)
rushing to and fro raffles place and tanjong pagar for interviews
is it really that tough to get a job that pays seven bucks per hour?
perhaps i've been brainwashed by how much the Australians are getting paid
haha
am i suppose to have done more holiday jobs in the past?..since the employers are all looking out for work experience.
somehow i've transited from waiting for things to come, to actually actively doing things such that something will happen..
guess that is something worthy of a round of applause.
alright.
trusting that by the end of this week.the perfect job is coming my way:)
ok time to sleep
hotdogs and nuggets for dinner tomorrow.
haha

FINALLY back home.
back to the place where I feel the warmth and safety
now that a couple of days had passed by...
the terrible truth has started to sink in deeper n deeper
till the extent that I feel the pain stronger than when I was in aussie.

it's really different having to lose one of your belonging and to lose all of them in one go.
sigh.i would already be real frantic to lose like my wallet or something
don't understand why all these had to take place.at this specifc period of time.
I am just reminded that God has His plan in mind.
so we should not be worried about what we eat, drink or wear.
no matter how much i've planned for the time now before i left for aussie.
reality has added a cruel twist to my ending.

ok need to sidetrack
everyone who's reading this now.
pls do me a favour by msging me your name n number.
considering my camera phone n sim card are both gone as well.
thanks alot!
my mind's been in a blank..and even when things are supposedly good, i can't bring myself to smile.
ahhhh!frustrated.
why are certain chain of events meant to occur in this sequence.how can people change so quickly?
i slipped n fell.

ok if i were to go on.this would be the most depressing entry of the year already.
its time to move on.
step 1: find a job
step 2: plan my budget
step 3:enjoy civilian life!
shall elaborate what's considered as civilian life in some other entry.haha
things seem bleak now.and i know i might have to live from my hand to mouth for the time being
God reminds me of his goodness n mercy
at least me n my pals are all still alive n kicking!:)
we can still work things out.

"The road is long, The valley's deep.The ocean's wide in front of me.But God saved the day!"

less than two weeks away from aussie
having mixed emotions right now..
wanting to go and come back ord..
while not exactly looking forward to the life there
ok i am bringing tonnes of facial care products and wet tissues oops
hmm..guess with so many overseas trips' experience..
this shouldn't be anything that new well with the companion of fellow pals..
time would definitely pass faster talking about ord
guess its probably time to start looking out for a temp job
still not sure what would be my ideal job
ok other than being an intern at a architecture firm(which is almost impossible) given my current qualifications retail?..admin clerk? call centre?
perhaps its good to start sending out resumes n requests even before i leave
life after 11.11.08 is way too exciting n exhilarating
woo hoo:)
ok recently i am just stuck watching ming zhong zhu ding.
its kinda trashy at some parts but the plot's the best i've seen for a taiwan drama
hilarious!


love this song from mama mia:)
Artist: Andrew Langtree
Song: Lay All Your Love on Me

SKY
I wasn't jealous before we met
Now every man that I see is a potential threat
And I'm possessive, it isn't nice
You've heard me saying that smoking was my only vice
But now it isn't true
Now everything is new
And all I've learned
Has overturned
I beg of you

SOPHIE
Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me

It was like shooting a sitting duck
A little small talk, a smile and baby I was stuck
I still don't know what you've done with me
A grown-up woman should never fall so easily
I feel a kind of fear
When I don't have you near
Unsatisfied
I skip my pride
I beg you dear

SKY
Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me

BOYS
Don't go sharing your devotion
Lay all your love on me

SOPHIE
I've had a few little love affairs
They didn't last very long and they've been pretty scarce

SKY
I used to think that was sensible
It makes the truth even more incomprehensible

SOPHIE
'Cause everything is new
And everything is you
And all I've learned
Has overturned
What can I do?

SKY / PEPPER / EDDIE / BOYS
Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me
Don't go sharing your devotion
Lay all your love on me

GIRLS
Don't go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me
Don't go sharing your devotion
Lay all your love on me

changing appetite at marina square
grilled cajun chicken with cheese, with tortilla wraps (closely resembled indian prata)
in which jt ended up eating the wraps by dipping it into sour cream sauce just like how he eats prata
hahaha
happy NS-ing..in tekong..even as i am blogging now..
can't wait to see your new haircut.
oops
carnival on sat was lots of fun n excitement..with all the small kids queuing to take their shot at the make shift goal post
sad to say, the girls seemed to kick better than the guys
surprising..
ok..just two more weeks left in camp!
:)
all smiles.love

i can't seem to stop going back to apple care centre!
after the ipod problem.the earphones died as well
oh well.haha
at least there's always replacement.
have a feeling this won't be my last trip there.
haha

felt kinda discouraged and messed up this whole week in camp
life is like a ride on the roller coaster..at times we might be zooming up to the peak..feeling the refreshing wind blowing across your face
admiring the view..but before u know it..
you'll be on your way down..down down...
can't comprehend why some people's words and actions can be so insensitive.

cell meeting encouraged me alot..the people around are just like family to me.
their company just cheers me up:)
anyway.before i forget.
happy birthday becca!..
you're OLD-er now..
ahha..
gonna have a super packed weekend..
and i am already looking forward to teach the kids tml.
ok time to sleep.

bought the book titled "the kite runner" after hearing friend's recommendation
was seriously taken aback on how well written the book is..
it really opened my eyes to how the afghans went through endless struggles for peace but end up seeing their own country ruined by locals that were thirsty for power,and intolerant of ethnic differences
what an irony life can be..

ran for the army half marathon early this morning..was dreading it first.
but thank God i completed the 21km with jonathan
with minimal stops at waterpoints and the toilets
:)
my both legs been cramping like mad ever since.ahhh
ok..random..but we ran past the sail today..
always impressed by its design..on how the building is able to be so stretched out
like a big sail
but yet still sound structurally.

ok i can't wait to experience for myself how school will be like next yr.
got reminded again on how important it is for me to hear from God daily
need to be more disciplined in my daily quiet time!
if not i'll have to treat someone a donut.haha

it has been a not too delightful week..
just have no idea why i can't seem to be light-hearted and cheerful
small issues seem to further entangle the already frustrated mind
perhaps i've just been unable to lift up the burden and worries to God
what can't be worse than to feel a little taken for granted by the friends closest to your heart
i need to wake myself up from this unpleasant mood!

ok negative stuff aside.
finally went back to teach the kids after missing out all the saturdays for ndp
felt a little lost at the start, haha probably stage fright or something
ended up stuttering..but soon enough.managed to get into the mood
hah.the kids are still as mischievous as before.
but next sat i am going to be stuck in camp!
so much so for reunion with the kids

life can be just so short and fragile.
not going to spend that precious time being down and out!
cheers for myself:)
i am disturbed by how "fu man ren jian" soundtrack,
if u remember that super ultra ancient old ch8 drama,
can make me a tad happier.haha

last then two weeks of buying the ipod classic
i headed to the repair centre..feeling all fed up
and perhaps ready to give the apple service centre a piece of my mind
thankfully..none of that have to happen
the lady agreed to replace my ipod with a new one..:)
without even hearing me explain finish
haha...
now i realize why people can't get enough of apple products
the tour next year seems to be meeting endless obstacles
and having divided ideas ain't making things simpler
ok..praying that God will open a way out
forced my youngest bro to go swim one lap at the olympic size pool today
guess that is his biggest achievement for the month..haha

happy national day!
i am going to spend the whole day waiting at the open space outside millenia walk
and getting stuffed with kfc,army food,soya bean,milo
and hopefully-pizza hut
haha
long break next week.
woo hoo:)

i know its time to SAVE UP!
when my youngest brother says that i am a spendthrift.
gosh..

one week of leave just came and went..
but can say that i really enjoyed and relaxed myself from all the stresses of camp
-sun and sand at sentosa..
-finally bought the ipod classic at a bargain price..overjoyed:)
but from now on really have to save up and be on a tight budget
if not i'll really be left with nothing after ord
with the ipod comes itunes...which up to now..
i kinda detest..
constant lag and somewhat unfriendly user interface..
can't even search for album artwork without an itunes store account
and itunes doesn't know how to automatically identify songs with broken links?!
maybe there's no such thing as a perfect combination
finally back home after a tiring run at ecp...time to head straight for my cozy bed!
praying that j's dad operation goes smoothly.

listening to some slow emo songs to relax..
time seems to come to a standstill
having alot of dreams and desires for the future
but just that i have to exercise my patience
not wanting to wake up so early tomorrow just to go for some bike brake test at bedok
i am sure the week ahead would be better:)

what a wonderful encounter during service today.
felt God silently reminding me how he love me the way I am
there's no need to change myself to be someone else..and not to depend too much on Man
because they will tend to fail u at times.
something so simple..but yet it is the thing i would neglect ever so often.

went on our usual sunday cell group shopping trip..its subtlely becoming our habit
haha..one day our pockets would be dug empty...
went to two star three sixty outlets, one at wheelock and the other at raffles city..
and they're still selling the leftovers from the sale..
either couldn't find the desired design or the size..
disappointed..
and so tempted to spurge on getting the silver ipod classic 80gb
it can just fit in my whole music library plus hold tonnes of dramas n movies
guess i can only patiently save up for that.
the meet up with the pos gang was just great.they just make me smile.
thank you guys and girls for the shirt..i'll have to cover the one word when i wear it next time.
haha..
ok..gonna post up some pictures taken in timbre:)
nice place with nice thin crust pizza.
a pity it closes way too early.




:)

it seems like yesterday that i can still tell others i am still a teenage..
"i am still under 20 and all"
but now i have to admit the fact that i have already reached the big 2-something..
the next phase of life perhaps?
haha..
one thing i realised is that for all the past birthdays that i have had
what mattered to me are the gifts that i received..
you know..all the wish lists that people love to put up
but that seem to fade away this year
what's more important to me now are that the people around me are there for me..
is this part of growing up?haha...guess it is
left camp super early today...the half day off came totally unexpected
know all my army pals can just stand in a row and start stoning me for that
but really wanna thank u all for making my birthday in camp just so special..
with the messages and the card..
i m touched..seriously..its been just awesome to have each one of u around..
even as we have gone through hell and heaven..
u guys just motivate me to move on:)
haha..and the rest who wished me..a big thank u as well
what a simple but yet heartwarming day:)
and most importantly thank you God for seeing me through all these years
tonight to pm then timbre!:)
ok another "i'll try not to fall asleep" ndp rehearsal tomorrow..
haha

this whole weekend made me felt so accomplished...
though it might be just a routine sunday and monday
haha..
just came back from sentosa...spent the whole day lazing around on the beach..
letting my mind relax, forgetting all the things that need to be done or the events that are coming my way..
I need more of such outings!
random pictures that was taken in attempt to kill the boredom..

now i am feeling the pain of sunburnt!
oh ya..before i forget...
was at tcc last week..and ate the nicest tiramisu ever:)
though it was high in alcohol content..i felt a little high after eating it
at least it didn't taste like sponge cake..

learnt on sunday that it is ever so important to have self-respect, and self-worth
i need to grow to have that dignity and to learn how to value myself!

taken a short break from the ever rising tension in camp
while still wondering how did my weekend turn out to be only a pathetic half day
really have no idea why certain things must happen and why certain people must exist.
why would someone behave like this
so shut down emotionally.
depressing it might seem...but guess all the pressure is making the like-minded people unite to fight.
we all will make it through this trial i am sure..
really depending on His strength and wisdom to restrain my actions and words.
not going to allow temporary anger to result in a regrettable act.

"But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head."
this verse just keeps coming back to me.
even as i reflect about what has happened.
indeed we are deeply displeased..or should i say we even abhor him
the endless ingratitude, the continual effort to instill fear
he sure knows how to make life a living hell
what will he gain from all these?
no matter how much my fellow pals may curse and swear..
guess there's no point wasting my breath and energy..
he has already lost the respect he ought to be getting

despite of all the negative influence,my first day of rest is going to get ruined!
had a stressful but exciting time during driving..with me struggling to prevent the engine from stalling
no idea why i would be so afraid to step on the accelerator
haha
lunch n catch with jem..then dinner n shopping with cell group pals
was just walking the whole day from city hall to orchard, then back to raffles city
then again..i m back at orchard
too much money to spare in my ez-link card maybe
haha..
ended up buying a top..
i m a compulsive buyer
no perhaps.like what izak said
not a good habit especially when i am suppose to save!
but oh well..splurging a little occasionally is healthy:)
tonight set me thinking on alot of things that i've left untouched
time to get back to focus:)

my real night out is finally here!!!
though not exactly on the perfect day..since i have to rush back to camp tml morning
but haha..its still exciting enough:)
hope i can get some sleep tonight
and survive Saturday's ndp

such a deep urge to wanna just fly away from here to somewhere else
as long as i am not on this island
somewhere with cooler climate, slower pace of life.
somewhere different from here.
haha..that probably won't happen till this year's over.

nothing beats having resolve all...and being back to as before.
:)
friends can just make such big differences in our lives
one week of tough marching is finally over..just one more to go
hope i'll have my next friday night free!
dun wanna miss out on the reunion cum farewell party.
life can afford to slow down a little.

misunderstood.
sometimes even the closest friends are capable of that
not that my best friends did.
but that totally plunged me straight down the deepest valley
with that subtle frustration always tugging at my heart
that sucks big time
thank God for giving me the strength..and reminding me that he's my best friend
:)
came to realize today that parades can be pretty life-changing too
felt that little pride to be able to represent my company and march in front of so large an audience
at least better than feeling all depressed over the endless rehearsals that come before every parade itself.
wishing for a night out real soon.
to be able chill out with friends

finally.a short break from a long,physical week in camp
that left everyone pretty much drained physically, emotionally and mentally
can't comprehend why certain people would act in a certain manner that leave us wondering what did we actually do wrong now.
perhaps he just want us to live in fear everyday
no matter what i am always reminded that God placed him over my life as my leader
thus.i just have to respect his authority.his actions are not for me to judge
i am really looking forward to school now.
can't wait for life to resume its normal state.
subzone camp is already ongoing even as i type this entry now...
haha hope i can get there early tml and that someone would save a plate of food for a hungry soul like me:)
ok time to pack up and head back to camp soon!

went for my first driving lesson today..was 15 minutes late!
no idea why the trains are still so packed though they claimed to have increased the frequency by how many trains during this period of time blah and all..sigh
on a lighter note..the instructor allowed me to start driving on the first lesson!
was expecting him to just go through with me the parts of the car and how to operate the clutch-gear system..haha...
driving a car feels totally different from riding a bike..thats for sure..
and having to turn the steering wheel for a few rounds just to make a small right turn.
that took me a long while to get use to it.not forgetting the engine died twice
i am a disaster.i know my army pals would nod in agreement.
haha..i need to practice more.can't wait for the next lesson:)
weekend's coming to an abrupt end

happy birthday jeanie!
our dearest leader,friend:)

can't believe becca actually get to go to all these places, while i had to endure the whole week of heat, sweat and endless rehearsals
life's quite unfair apparently.haha
the church looks like what i saw in the books that i borrowed..
imagine getting to see it real life..woah:)
happened to come across some stranger's blog.
surprised and sadden how some people can become so over-zealous for God
thus causing people around to stumble.
guess that is where the balance is essential
going out to catch up on the sales tml..:)
nite

my answer to a hungry night!can't get enough of it.worry about MSG later.haha

yeah:)
finally got down to changing layout
realized how unbalanced the ratio of skins for girls and guys
haha..perhaps there are much more female skin creators out there
anyway..i passed FTT:) that means no more lame driving theory tests anymore
time to start practical lessons soon..haha
watching the news, with all the constant updates on the suffering in China.
how fragile n unpredictable life can be..gotta keep the country in prayer!
finally met up with pos friends today...we have to meet up more often man
counting down to the last two days of off..:(
would definitely feel uneasy when back in camp
n that also means ippt is drawing near..and i must get myself up early to run tml morning..i must.

"not being complacent, or self-righteous"
"going back to the basic of praying, reading his Word, fasting"
i can hear Him reminding me to breakout of my current situation
ok..time to meet army pals for lunch..:)
FTT's tml...though i am not fully prepared
seriously hoping i can pass it!
haha

its the second day of the long long break:)
spent half a day researching more bout the trip to Taiwan probably in Jan 09
horrified that airport taxes has risen to 300 bucks, which is like almost one-third of the cost of the trip..
oh no..that means i have to save even more now.but guess it will be all worthwhile
never been out on holiday with my bunch of close friends.
haha
managed to wake up early today to go time my whole 2.4 timing
barely made the timing..guess its time to start training and not be lazy
everything for ippt silver!:)

no idea why, but parents always like to leave me to fend for myself..
don't think i can afford driving lessons now with my current allowance
and i almost impulsively sign up for bike lesson at ubi
perhaps the error in the online system was God's reminder for me to calm down
traveling all the way to ubi for bike lessons don't exactly appeal to me after much thought
thank you God

i need to get back into prayer and his Word.
this life of mine is not mine, it is His
what my mind can perceive is only a fraction of his wisdom
i'll trust in Him..

back to singapore:)
this taiwan trip really make me see life in a different perspective.
anyway..the first obvious difference i could feel back here is the constant warm and humid weather
the cold windy nights in taiwan are missed..ok but please do not include the mosquitoes that attacked relentlessly
haha
the relaxed and almost stress free lifestyle of the villagers seem quite captivating
what can be as laid back as just tending a small onion plantation, living in a small self built cement house, with a scooter to take u to the nearest town to replenish your groceries.

having a small chat with your neighbours in front of the television every night

perhaps this is what make the behaviour of the old rude and senile people that can't seem to work something out with their minds but have to be barking endlessly to express themselves, somewhat glaring.

i need to get out of this asap.
other than that,the time in taiwan was pretty remarkable.
after reaching kaoshiung,
we were just squeezing as many places into a day's itinerary
eating and shopping!
plus a mad time at the arcade.
that sums up the whole trip to the city.
realized that the cab rides there are so affordable!
at least the meter won't be ticking away even when u're stuck for minutes at a junction
haha:)
my last day's breakfast.tang pau (pau with meat,veg and soup inside that burst out)
plus carrot cake n iced coffee.woah:)

beef noodles!:)
i have learnt that at many times many of us are so trapped inside our own worlds
that we failed to connect and show love to the people around us.
we're just right in our own sense.though others know that you're utterly wrong and
have not change for the better since day one.
feel disappointed to know a fellow believer to be like this.
pray that he knows.
to sum it all.i m really thankful for God's protection even when i scaled the toughest terrain
he's my refuge.strong tower in times of need:)
thank you God.

flying off in just 13 hours time.
:) gonna enjoy the flight
though everything seems to come a little too fast
making me feel a little desensitized
met up with the tutors for dinner..to sorta send me off
totally enjoyed it..haha
time out with people that are more experienced and mature in age can be such a good experience.
ended the day with coffee n cheesecake..nothing more to ask for:)
ok its time to really gain weight and start running more often.
must always keep that in mind
amidst all the searching for an answers to things in life
it all leads back to one thing..
"seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added on to you"
something so basic but yet powerful.
alrite...bye people.
be back in may:)
my chicken cutlet and bubble tea are waiting for me.haha
i am so going to miss my laptop.

oh my...i need to save money..and share the usd 150 minimum purchase cost with issac
haha.online goods can seem so attractive and tempting
i am just lacking the credit card only
oh well..maybe i can find a good deal for a bag in taiwan..
if not its online spree with zak when i am back
feels so good to be alive and kicking
especially without any fever or any other form of sickness to tie you to the bed
taiwan's weather's still kinda warm..like 22-30 degrees
wind please cool the area down!dun end up becoming as stuffy n unbearable like in singapore
















the real cool bag that's calling out to be bought
haha:)
finally going back to help out at tuition tml..haven seen the kids for like 3 weeks!!
ahh..healthy body is all you need today
take care of it.