when the music fades

love's beautiful...so beautiful..thats how the song goes..but many times how tough is it to believe in that?
dun actually wanna type this entry.....but if i don't i might never be able
how do someone that bring u joy...also bring u trouble..pain at the very next moment
well thats what i have now
perharps it is was just that i have been running in rounds and rounds..
just like on the track..temporarily distracted by the sights and feel of joy..friendships...
but now i realized i am back to the starting point
that i haven moved a single bit off that round track
was it my fault?..or my choice?
WHY?
is it that my friends are so insecure....
they think i think too much
they say i am too sensitive..
but is it too much to ask of them just to be my friend..and be there for each other at anytime...anywhere..no matter wat situation we're facing..or what mood we are in
all the silent whispers fill my mind..it gets me down..
hmm..
parents are constantly not on good terms..i became the target for stress release..they nagged..over the smallest issue..they lecture over every single small bit
i nearly thought i would become mentally unsound after all this
but thank God for being there
"through the darkest hour..the deepest valley..i cried for help..
with a warm embrace..and a word of comfort...he broke through the dark and picked me up"