i can't go on

-personal advisory, its my blog so please give me some space to let it all out, i'll feel better aft-
neglected this for quite some time..so now i am back
obviously.....everything around has been just spinning..SPIN...SPIN...
i lost all directions
hate it this way
school's been just a zombie gathering centre....
tired....FREAKED OUT
you probably don't really understand why i am feeling this way
but its ok
nothing else really matter
if u think i am a serious pessimistic maniac
you're wrong
its really normal to feel this stressed out
saturday just passed like this
current affairs was kinda expectedly hard...i am really not into such things
went for a swim to really slow things a little...been not getting enough sleep
funfair's not exactly exciting now...but we don't have a choice..we have to stick to our promise
things are not the same in church...
came as a shock....that anything can happen to anyone..i probably understand the reason for that choice...
i know i got to tell myself not to give up....its really tough..TOUGH....i dun lie bout that
for now i had enough....its time to spend some time alone..
God you are the only one that can rescue me from all these....i am not going to sink in to quick sand

"Life throws really random tough knots at u to get u in ur way...u tripped...fall...probably bleed or broke a few teeth...but if u're just gonna sit there and cry and complain....nothing good will really come out of it...tell myself all these is not permanent..once i overcome it...i'll not fear the same knots again..and i can tell the larger and more complicated knots..i am all ready for them"

"please God i pray"

i dont have the mood to go anywhere or do something...but this is something i should not follow my heart
i got one more day left...and i only did like 5% of all the work
plus homework...tutorials..tests...hahahahahas
i can only laugh at myself

when will it be all over?