rest and think

hooray...the feeling of holidays just totally great...although there's still alot of commitments and activities in school and church...at least not every day i'll have to crawl out of bed in the morning
todae chinese...was alrite...not too easy...for the first time i can't wait for it to be over..
went ps and later heeren...with the clique pple...
lunch wasn't exactly delicious but liked the bread...still have that strong chessy smell stuck in my throat..
EHHH =(
finally i can have time to pack up my room and throw away stuff no longer needed...before i move...everything's like in a mess now
many different feelings in my mind now...kinda puzzled by the things going on around me..
things that i heard from fairfield bout school now.....seems all so real to me now..
all that temptations to just "fit in"...at the end of the dae...u should ask whether its all worth it?
i would say no..thats why this is just a transition time for me
for many things i can't say that i would not fall back into...
especially relationships
i can reverse things in the past..but things in the future...my future is the consequence of my actions todae..
but now i know...its God thats the one that leads me..
for now all i want is Him..if u truly noe me..u'll get my point..
its sad that many times pple dun understand what i had to go through..all they see is what the other party feels..
many times i actually didn't want that turn of events but when it comes i just got to accept it
i m not having a good time either
all i want is my friends..
ones that inspires me to love God more each dae
all this i pray