true worship

haven updated my blog for sometime le...had a very very busy weekend...yup....firstly there was fop at indoor which i ushered for....wasn't really feeling well over the whole week...at first a thought just sprang up telling me not to go...to just rest at home..but i know God stirred me up..to obey him...truly i never regretted going....although support was really long...and ushering really drained me out...i enjoyed the praise and worship....especially the part by hillsong..for such a long time..i never had such a long time just devoted to sink into God's presence and to be grateful for all he's done in my life...
ushering for an external event was a very different experience...people sometimes do not regard ushers as there to serve God's people and were kinda rude..yup..but after all we're there for God alone =)
overjoyed that huiling, mandy, brandon and jade came on sat....at first all the queues were super confusing..but in the end they still met meifeng and the rest..ahahs...yeah..so glad u all came...pray that God spoke to each of u in a special way
reached home at 12.15am like tt on sat...but super energetic...read the bible till bout 2am..then went to sleep..and woke up at 6am...amazed that i could get up
and off to chc's anniversary...oh....loved the atmosphere of church..yeah..many of the cell group members were not around though...ushered at the same place..north balcony!but got used to it..and prefer serving there now..
during service...many time..i nearly wanted to fall asleep..but thank God that he gave me strength to last through it...the cell group went off to suntec's sky garden in the end...we bought bk,macs,yong tau fu,spring chicken,kfc, choc milk...having a feast at the sky garden..the weather was hot though..and i got super embarrassed to find out that my pants got a small tear...ARHH!!
by sun..i was really drained physically...just kept taking naps on mon...couldn't even sit down to do work or anything.....super frustrated with that =(
"many times i felt like giving up running this race, many times my wings got sore and i just dipped to hit the cold ground, i seriously don't know what tomorrow will hold, how will i survive the next day"
but i always remember God says "those who hope in me shall renew their strength, they shall soar with wings like eagles"...wat a comforting verse that my hope is in Christ
got to pray bout my commitment for usher ministry...felt half hearted at times..and the ic isn't making things easier for me...
problems seem to come in a flow..the family financial prob is starting to seem alarming..dad's staying at home much longer..at times i wanna break down to cry..but i can't...i don't blame anyone, anything...
i have God by my side..i'll live my life to the fullest and happiest
todae we had cell group outreach..didn't start too well..i expected that when i send that msg, i'll get that reply....that i'll take the responsibility
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enough of sad or problems...i'll look to the bright side of things....we had fun pouring water into each other's cup when the water landed on my nose or someone's face...we flipped coins..and tried scooping mentos out of flour...i was a little greedy..was thinking to take one to eat..hahas
thanks jt, issac, meifeng, keenan, darrell...it was fun to take part in todae's games with u all..
i love you Lord..no matter what
happy national day!!!=)