had dinner with zak before he heads soon to ulu pandan tekong.

if he's ever reading this. do hope you take care and have fun there!

yes, it's possible to make some fun out of that mundane life. look forward to first book out!

body's feeling the heat of late night, and lack of consideration for a proper diet. been eating all kinds of junk and finally the body reached it's threshold.

terrible feeling, felt so helpless. just so thankful i wasnt alone.

coming week looms with all the most significant events of this month or even first half of the year.

please let me be well enough for ippt on wed.

and let AC be such a fulfilling time :)

is the dream all worth the sacrifice.

in the pursue of something, a goal, an ambition.

a hope for a change.

but along the way, we'll get tripped over. fall flat in our faces

slightly bruised, start crying perhaps.

the strong desire to just throw in the towel.

only know at such times, i seek no personal advices from anyone.

but just pray.

remind myself what is the promise.

even if it tarry, it will surely come to pass.

after yesterday's criticism about my model in comparison with the rest.

i do know there's lots of room for improvement.

the effort (which i previously thought was great) is still insufficient.

not that looking forward to the release of results, just trusting for a chance to advance.

keep trying. again and again. and again.

Checklist for today:

1) Redo model for sunday

2) Pulpit design model

3) Portfolio

4) Sleep

focus and get moving.

certain this is the final lousy week.