how real are you to yourself.

amidst all the celebrations and fun, I was just subtly reminded what was it all about.

put away the formalities, love in the manner you ought to.

fulfilled my long lost secret wish - to head to punggol for a super random photoshoot, without any assignment or purpose at the back of my mind. just there plainly for the experience.

that might sound kinda insignificant, but it is really such time away from city life that bear all the more importance (at least to me).

and dun forget the famous nasi lemak (which lived up to it's name) that completes the day perfectly!

the initial tug. the big push.
and now the tugging.

back and forth.
set your mind right and not sway.


Christmas is quickening its pace.
the end of yet another year is drawing closer.

the shocking fact of the week:
China bans Twitter!, Youtube?!?!, Facebook!??!?!!? and even yousendit.

the disillusions of life:

when u thought u knew someone, but actually that person is a double headed snake.
speaking something to one, appearing so innocent to another.
can't we just be true to ourselves at least?
it gets tiresome to be constantly cautious of what i hear, putting the words through an invisible filter.

it's easier to speak based on hearsay than to truly understand someone on a personal basis.
for a moment, i thought i don't know you at all.

on a side note:

heard today that renewal of the mind is not to just put upon the old self all the new values, but rather it is to go deeper into the basic foundation and starting afresh with that new revelation.
how true that we just tend to apply that principle only on the surface, and attempt to only decrease or increase a certain element in our lives, instead of completely removing and starting anew.

congratulations (to myself)

i've survived first semester and came out in one piece.
the continuous late nights and the two meals (plus supper) per day per week routine all seemed worthwhile when i looked back.
i've learnt to be more aware about my surroundings, to be more critical about all the details that i'm presented with.
to dare to take the risk and to try despite falling and failing.
to understand that getting up thereafter is that which bears all the significance.

it is amazing how i used to perceive the world to function in a certain manner, when i realized the reality is very much far from that.

point is -
THE HOLIDAYS HAVE ARRIVED.

first stop: Bintan





a very much needed escape from city life.
the huge tranquil beach and the sound of the waves are just so soothing :)

all ready to catch up on all that i've been missing out during semester!