my very first portfolio!
now that i've reached this point in time.
i am just truly grateful to be able to wrestle through it all and be able to submit this.

haha.

the deprivation of sleep can make someone very truthful and sensitive to his/her environment.

am reminded that when you're in a position holding a responsibility, the people around tend to neglect your efforts and just deemed it as something within your scope of work.

not that the person should shuck off all that he/she should be doing, but just that the people in the team can be so blatant to just dump all that personal work to the rep and let the rep settle it himself.
(not speaking from my own experience)

something has indeed broken, and we seemed to be a little thrown off the track.
not that we are unable to comprehend, but rather we haven't even started to understand.
it seem like an excruciating task to look beyond what's on the surface.
time to be decisive and to look at the fuller picture instead.
to be true to yourself.

does nonchalance always equate to being ignorant?
or is it just one party giving while the other party's taking without realizing.

it just doesnt feel right when you're one that's always listening while the other shares.
might seem a little foolish at times.

i cant sort it out somehow and i've been going in circles.
perhaps it's time to lower its importance and snap out of it.

RECESS WEEK!!
very timely.
thank God for his grace for the past 6 weeks.
it really carried me through every single day and night.

time to catch up on my sleep!

had internal critique as the last lesson of the day.

that made me ponder about how sometimes being just vague is the method of instruction and passing down of skill and techniques.
(though being constantly vague will definitely leave the people around u deluded)

perhaps we've all been set in a 'spoonfed' environment where every single thing that we do is bounded by certain 'test & proven' methods.

to the extent that taking a risk to try seem somewhat redundant or even pointless.

is that really the way to go for seek education?
is it really wholesome?

i guess some really can't be bothered about the quality as long as we're able to eventually attain that degree or certification.(and find a stable job)

ironic it might seem.


alright random reflection aside.

i am so tired of being distracted, esp when i have a deadline to meet.

the last project for this first half sem of my aki journey is going to be due on thursday.
and my mind is still wandering all over, except on the project.

i am definitely looking for a time of rest in recess week!




the pictures that i have been using as sources of inspiration.
sleepy mind is not functioning normally already.
(i really love the mac ability to copy just a certain section of the web page, photo, words, e.t.c.)
cool!

:)

the deep frustration

there's something left unspoken and unrealized.

is it something that i shouldnt be feeling? i wont reckon so.

disconnectedness.

how long can this actually last?

breakthrough in my thinking.

for the first time:

i've headed back to school at eleven in the night.
staying up all the way till six in the morning before i totally KO.

survived one full day of lectures n tutorials plus more lantern making time.

all i can say thank God for his supernatural strength and wonderful group mates.

okay my 'almost dead' body is beckoning me to head straight to my comfy bed.

life can be so interesting.

summary of the past two days: deprived of sleep, coffee, macdonalds, more coffee, mild insanity, and haha coffee again.
alright before i suffer from caffeine poisoning.

after the first presentation for history tutorial, the tutor's comments really got me interested to find out more information about the thought process of Le Corbusier and the fellow architects.It is pretty captivating in a sense.


sometimes, we tend to neglect the importance of communication.
to trust and to share.
is viable for a just one side initiative only?
it might get a tad too exhausting and before long the relationship might just falter away.

a brand new week awaits!
was just counting the number of weeks that have passed since the start of school.
and it has already been 4 weeks!
haha
thank God for the rest over the weekend, since the assignment is somewhat less demanding. and making lantern is definitely more meaning and somewhat motivating compared to just abstract art.

oh well, i am still too literal.

the takeaway for the weekend - to persevere on despite of all that might go on.


i need His grace and mercy to help me step out each new step.


random: found this picture on flickr while brainstorming for ideas.

another late night (or early morning staying up) to be precise.
felt rather inefficient with my pace of work.
tend to be so easily distracted with surfing the net (even it meant to read google news repeatedly)

haha life has changed so dramatically for me.
no doubt it's extremely draining, but yet somewhat interesting and evoke a deeper satisfaction within.
still adjusting to being forced to stay home on weekends and to be more freed up during the weekdays.
having to turn down appointments, or to rush work like now so i can make time to go out on sun.

it's definitely still the transition phrase, so i sincerely hope people around pardon me.

after 3 weeks of school, i am left to ponder and question about so many issues.
i kept asking myself, is this the limit?
can i still go further and think deeper?
so many times, we all tend to just look at things at the surface and attempt to rationalize them.
neglecting the fact that it holds more purpose or meaning when we actually take a little more time to look into it and to pay more attention to it.

sidetrack: after spending so much time in school and all, makes me feel a little detached from the outside world. (a sacrifice perhaps?)
but i do remind myself constantly it's the balance that matters.
and to set priorities into all that i am doing.

haha cant help it but design school has urged me to organise my life and to set my "literal" mind into thinking "abstract"

alrights, it's time to catch up on my sleep.



the end of human strength, is the beginning of God's grace and power
i cant comprehend all the actions, but God is the focus.