listening to some slow emo songs to relax..
time seems to come to a standstill
having alot of dreams and desires for the future
but just that i have to exercise my patience
not wanting to wake up so early tomorrow just to go for some bike brake test at bedok
i am sure the week ahead would be better:)

what a wonderful encounter during service today.
felt God silently reminding me how he love me the way I am
there's no need to change myself to be someone else..and not to depend too much on Man
because they will tend to fail u at times.
something so simple..but yet it is the thing i would neglect ever so often.

went on our usual sunday cell group shopping trip..its subtlely becoming our habit
haha..one day our pockets would be dug empty...
went to two star three sixty outlets, one at wheelock and the other at raffles city..
and they're still selling the leftovers from the sale..
either couldn't find the desired design or the size..
disappointed..
and so tempted to spurge on getting the silver ipod classic 80gb
it can just fit in my whole music library plus hold tonnes of dramas n movies
guess i can only patiently save up for that.
the meet up with the pos gang was just great.they just make me smile.
thank you guys and girls for the shirt..i'll have to cover the one word when i wear it next time.
haha..
ok..gonna post up some pictures taken in timbre:)
nice place with nice thin crust pizza.
a pity it closes way too early.




:)

it seems like yesterday that i can still tell others i am still a teenage..
"i am still under 20 and all"
but now i have to admit the fact that i have already reached the big 2-something..
the next phase of life perhaps?
haha..
one thing i realised is that for all the past birthdays that i have had
what mattered to me are the gifts that i received..
you know..all the wish lists that people love to put up
but that seem to fade away this year
what's more important to me now are that the people around me are there for me..
is this part of growing up?haha...guess it is
left camp super early today...the half day off came totally unexpected
know all my army pals can just stand in a row and start stoning me for that
but really wanna thank u all for making my birthday in camp just so special..
with the messages and the card..
i m touched..seriously..its been just awesome to have each one of u around..
even as we have gone through hell and heaven..
u guys just motivate me to move on:)
haha..and the rest who wished me..a big thank u as well
what a simple but yet heartwarming day:)
and most importantly thank you God for seeing me through all these years
tonight to pm then timbre!:)
ok another "i'll try not to fall asleep" ndp rehearsal tomorrow..
haha

this whole weekend made me felt so accomplished...
though it might be just a routine sunday and monday
haha..
just came back from sentosa...spent the whole day lazing around on the beach..
letting my mind relax, forgetting all the things that need to be done or the events that are coming my way..
I need more of such outings!
random pictures that was taken in attempt to kill the boredom..

now i am feeling the pain of sunburnt!
oh ya..before i forget...
was at tcc last week..and ate the nicest tiramisu ever:)
though it was high in alcohol content..i felt a little high after eating it
at least it didn't taste like sponge cake..

learnt on sunday that it is ever so important to have self-respect, and self-worth
i need to grow to have that dignity and to learn how to value myself!

taken a short break from the ever rising tension in camp
while still wondering how did my weekend turn out to be only a pathetic half day
really have no idea why certain things must happen and why certain people must exist.
why would someone behave like this
so shut down emotionally.
depressing it might seem...but guess all the pressure is making the like-minded people unite to fight.
we all will make it through this trial i am sure..
really depending on His strength and wisdom to restrain my actions and words.
not going to allow temporary anger to result in a regrettable act.

"But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head."
this verse just keeps coming back to me.
even as i reflect about what has happened.
indeed we are deeply displeased..or should i say we even abhor him
the endless ingratitude, the continual effort to instill fear
he sure knows how to make life a living hell
what will he gain from all these?
no matter how much my fellow pals may curse and swear..
guess there's no point wasting my breath and energy..
he has already lost the respect he ought to be getting

despite of all the negative influence,my first day of rest is going to get ruined!
had a stressful but exciting time during driving..with me struggling to prevent the engine from stalling
no idea why i would be so afraid to step on the accelerator
haha
lunch n catch with jem..then dinner n shopping with cell group pals
was just walking the whole day from city hall to orchard, then back to raffles city
then again..i m back at orchard
too much money to spare in my ez-link card maybe
haha..
ended up buying a top..
i m a compulsive buyer
no perhaps.like what izak said
not a good habit especially when i am suppose to save!
but oh well..splurging a little occasionally is healthy:)
tonight set me thinking on alot of things that i've left untouched
time to get back to focus:)