and once again i look upon the cr0ss where u died...i am humbled by your mercy as i am broken inside...0nce again i thank you..once again i pour out my life
once again...i have back to stage where i am friends with many..but yet...sometimes its just doesnt feel that close after all..but yet..i know God has placed some friends that at the end of the day..their love for u will never change...they're here for u at the end
oh well..econs essay tml...not too appealing
nitez
Friday, April 28, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
the picking up myself process
looking back at how long since i actually blogged...its nearly two weeks..
been wanting to get down to it..but never had the chance to...since time no longer permit
let me think how can i sum up what i had been feeling for the past few weeks
HELPLESS?
probably thats the best i can come up with
even as i started to feel the pressure of POS building up..with the trainings ending late at somewhere far..and when i reach home..it will probably be impossible to even sit down and do work for 5 minutes
that sorta left me really frustrated even as i woke up in shock as the alarm rang..and i still haven done my work..
how should i say..its a viscious cycle
nevertheless..i dun regret putting myself into it..i guess some might feels an OVERcommitment..
but i say its an OVERcoming of time..to put my faith at work...
really grew to trust God to provide for my everyday needs
phew...POS is really a once in a lifetime thing...maybe its the last time i understand how people cheerlead..
two weeks...every single day never fails to drain my energy away..bit by bit
without God's purpose..and without seeking after his face
i almost wanted to say ITS ENOUGH
i can't take it any longer
but God always work in ways we cant imagine...with the incident on friday..clementi
hahas..another really "once in a lifetime is enough" experience...i know all i have is God
might seem a little exaggerated but thats how i felt
issac u and i would be fine!
take care
went JP with claire todae..hahas..and she really was nice to just follow me around as i randomly went into shops to look at my stuff..=)
too bad i was never meant to have that slippers...haiz shall just wait
"many people change...many situations fail us and devastate us..
but as long as our determintation and our belief never change, what can stop us from moving on?"
so u people out there who feel like on the verge of giving up...u BETTER NOT!
after each at the verge experience..we start afresh on a new peak
joseph..thats for u...remember that we are all still running this marathon..
been wanting to get down to it..but never had the chance to...since time no longer permit
let me think how can i sum up what i had been feeling for the past few weeks
HELPLESS?
probably thats the best i can come up with
even as i started to feel the pressure of POS building up..with the trainings ending late at somewhere far..and when i reach home..it will probably be impossible to even sit down and do work for 5 minutes
that sorta left me really frustrated even as i woke up in shock as the alarm rang..and i still haven done my work..
how should i say..its a viscious cycle
nevertheless..i dun regret putting myself into it..i guess some might feels an OVERcommitment..
but i say its an OVERcoming of time..to put my faith at work...
really grew to trust God to provide for my everyday needs
phew...POS is really a once in a lifetime thing...maybe its the last time i understand how people cheerlead..
two weeks...every single day never fails to drain my energy away..bit by bit
without God's purpose..and without seeking after his face
i almost wanted to say ITS ENOUGH
i can't take it any longer
but God always work in ways we cant imagine...with the incident on friday..clementi
hahas..another really "once in a lifetime is enough" experience...i know all i have is God
might seem a little exaggerated but thats how i felt
issac u and i would be fine!
take care
went JP with claire todae..hahas..and she really was nice to just follow me around as i randomly went into shops to look at my stuff..=)
too bad i was never meant to have that slippers...haiz shall just wait
"many people change...many situations fail us and devastate us..
but as long as our determintation and our belief never change, what can stop us from moving on?"
so u people out there who feel like on the verge of giving up...u BETTER NOT!
after each at the verge experience..we start afresh on a new peak
joseph..thats for u...remember that we are all still running this marathon..
Saturday, April 8, 2006
CROSS MY HEART
Cross My Heart
we got it all and we would be fools to let it go
coz i need you more and more
coz you're my life and i live for your love that u give
and although my journey's long, i soon be home...
oohhh..its gonna be so hard on my own
but i wont be alone
cross my heart and tell no lies
no one's leaving you behind
just because we say goodbye
cross my heart i do believe
in my heart and in my dreams i would be taking you with me
sometimes i think i can feel u breathing on me
you're there so deep inside
and i like what i feel
though its not what i feel
it helps me carry on till i come home
this song kept me company...
God please let the people see that everyone of us are pouring out our lives to the cell group..so please God..open their hearts
we got it all and we would be fools to let it go
coz i need you more and more
coz you're my life and i live for your love that u give
and although my journey's long, i soon be home...
oohhh..its gonna be so hard on my own
but i wont be alone
cross my heart and tell no lies
no one's leaving you behind
just because we say goodbye
cross my heart i do believe
in my heart and in my dreams i would be taking you with me
sometimes i think i can feel u breathing on me
you're there so deep inside
and i like what i feel
though its not what i feel
it helps me carry on till i come home
this song kept me company...
God please let the people see that everyone of us are pouring out our lives to the cell group..so please God..open their hearts
well...at least the depressing and rather frustrating week is coming to an end....guess this was the week i really start to reflect and ask myself whether i have been doing the right things.
friendship is how fragile...especially when u thought that that it was meant to be..it is not about me being pessimistic...but its just the truth being presented right in my face...
drained..confused..and really really helpless....who are the people in my life that is willing to be there for me..some i know they are always there...my cell group..secondary school buddies...who else?
sometimes secretly i hope God can just take me to heaven...but obviously he won't because my time is not up...i already had enough
ulcers just aggravate the pain i had to go through...life seems to stop for a moment
but now that things start to settle down..and everything start to fall into place...my heart can't seem to change..why?..i wonder..
friends that are secure...true...its an invisible and unspoken bond between each other that cant be spoken...what have i gotten after i have put in all my best and treat my friends like my best...
i know its over already and now that i have raked up the past i am sorry
i need to say it out and i promise i would get over after letting it out..
the absence of friendship, happiness and companion...just see my world crashing down..maybe i didnt see that crack within the pretty glassbottle..maybe i was blind..maybe
enough of my maybeS...things arent too peaceful not only in school..i feel the pressure mounting...
need to rush my work before there's pos on mon nite...and all the test and hw due for tues would leave me nuts..
"you will never leave nor forsake me" when i can't see God's hand..when there is
a mist obstructing my path..that is the time i got to trust God's heart
friendship is how fragile...especially when u thought that that it was meant to be..it is not about me being pessimistic...but its just the truth being presented right in my face...
drained..confused..and really really helpless....who are the people in my life that is willing to be there for me..some i know they are always there...my cell group..secondary school buddies...who else?
sometimes secretly i hope God can just take me to heaven...but obviously he won't because my time is not up...i already had enough
ulcers just aggravate the pain i had to go through...life seems to stop for a moment
but now that things start to settle down..and everything start to fall into place...my heart can't seem to change..why?..i wonder..
friends that are secure...true...its an invisible and unspoken bond between each other that cant be spoken...what have i gotten after i have put in all my best and treat my friends like my best...
i know its over already and now that i have raked up the past i am sorry
i need to say it out and i promise i would get over after letting it out..
the absence of friendship, happiness and companion...just see my world crashing down..maybe i didnt see that crack within the pretty glassbottle..maybe i was blind..maybe
enough of my maybeS...things arent too peaceful not only in school..i feel the pressure mounting...
need to rush my work before there's pos on mon nite...and all the test and hw due for tues would leave me nuts..
"you will never leave nor forsake me" when i can't see God's hand..when there is
a mist obstructing my path..that is the time i got to trust God's heart
Tuesday, April 4, 2006
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