symmetry: the circle and the square
no idea how i can use this idea to translate into something that can hold up a brick (using only string and satay sticks)
felt like an engineer for a moment.
or perhaps architects meant to have some 'engineer flair' as well.

a time of refreshment.
and a gentle reminder on how important it is to dwell in His presence
to not get caught up with the care and concerns of life.

back at the home front, life is getting much more hectic.
greater expectation of others, higher demand of self.
it is definitely something worth the challenge.

how crucial the word 'focus' can be.

hair's getting longer by the day, time for a good decent cut.
perhaps back to the more manageable short hair.
haha.

[realized that i've used arial all along, if u've noticed my older posts. shall revert back to that]

the places that i've visited, while doing the 30 sketches that kept me occupied the past weekend.










i was the weird person standing and sketching whenever there's something interesting.

in and out of sleep.

have you ever woke up in bed, after falling asleep when u intended to just take a nap..

that pretty much sums up my nights for the past week.
it's a miracle i still managed to churn out the work due the next day (quality being a separate issue)

friday is here again and it's time to catch up on so many things.
with a new tutor, everything is taking a positive change and many previously concealed directions now illuminated.
i seemed to be able to comprehend work much better now (perhaps it's just that i finally grasped the concept)

sidetrack: group work always brings out human character in it's most pure form.
it's frustrating when someone is just so stubborn to snap out of their own old mindset and to adopt the relevant concept and to just move on with it.
it is really that difficult?


friday, saturday, sunday
swim, model, draw, buffet, and sleep.

welcome the brand new weekend :)

the simple time out.
the sincere conversations.

the simple things that touch your heart.
there's no need to live a complicated live.
or to appear sophisticated.

the work seems never ending, always coming.
and appearing.
but it's so impt to take time off (or to just skive)
to let the exhausted mind rest a little, and to start off on a new page.

more sleepless nites, i can foresee.
but am reminded how i can and should pray and to really seek after Him.
He's the giver of strength, and we're made more than conquerors!

good nite :)

gotten a little weary of sketching.
so started blog surfing and reading all the entries..

when it came to the old cell group's entries (esp merrien's post on all the old photos from ancient times)
they still make me laugh and reminded me of how much we've all grown and changed (for better hopefully)
haha

and that all the problems that seemed daunting to us in the past are somehow so minute now to us.
growing up equates to overcoming bigger problems?
that's pretty true.

every day will present it challenges, and at the same time it's offering a chance for you to overcome and grow.

imagine yourself ten years down the road?
definitely more beautiful than you're now.

the weekend has arrived!
and it's totally filled with work (x30 sketches, etc)

the morning sketch at republic poly today was somewhat interesting.
it helped to break away from the daily routine of home-school-home.

and yes the school building is really intriguing, especially with the use of water and glass.
and the simple but yet unique cultural centre, which sheltered us from the sudden mad thunderstorm.what's going on.
i know that there's something changing.

not everything that happened was done on purpose.
to let go of the control and keep you eyes looking straight.
the struggle within and the turmoil unseen.

it's funny how tough it can be, and how much someone can greatly stir up your emotions.
irrational coupled with the uncertainty.
the distance and the separation.

to reunite back to the square one.
the strangers and friends.
how i wish i never knew you.

foolishness indeed. what have i done.
actions guided by the heart.

i've been trying too hard, to reach an unknown destination.
taken for granted many, neglected the rest.
and how i pray.
to return to the unchanging love.
to seek that peace within.

"i close my eyes, lift my hands to worship you.
you're the love of my life.
nothing else matters"

the recess and studio free weeks just came and left.
so quickly, that it barely felt that it was sufficient.

nonetheless, i am still grateful for the freedom in time.
to choose what i should do first, and to take time off and to enjoy the simple pleasures of life.

nothing will change just by me sitting down here talking about it and wanting so much to make a change. if i dun for once, take a step out.
(i must step out n forward to all that awaits)

certain things in life can't be forced upon.
and it is sad but yet necessary for one to learn by experience.
if you dont know how it hurts, it might not be obvious to you that you're actually doing all to yourself. (not that it applies to every single situation)

this phase seems like a renewal : a new content page and introduction to a brand new story.
to cherish and to embrace.

happy children's day, though i am already two hours late!
esp to my tuition kids, even though u would never read this (and i pray that you don't)
thanks for bringing me that joy and satisfaction (most of the time)
haha
look forward to seeing you all again on saturday!

haha

my very first portfolio!
now that i've reached this point in time.
i am just truly grateful to be able to wrestle through it all and be able to submit this.

haha.

the deprivation of sleep can make someone very truthful and sensitive to his/her environment.

am reminded that when you're in a position holding a responsibility, the people around tend to neglect your efforts and just deemed it as something within your scope of work.

not that the person should shuck off all that he/she should be doing, but just that the people in the team can be so blatant to just dump all that personal work to the rep and let the rep settle it himself.
(not speaking from my own experience)

something has indeed broken, and we seemed to be a little thrown off the track.
not that we are unable to comprehend, but rather we haven't even started to understand.
it seem like an excruciating task to look beyond what's on the surface.
time to be decisive and to look at the fuller picture instead.
to be true to yourself.

does nonchalance always equate to being ignorant?
or is it just one party giving while the other party's taking without realizing.

it just doesnt feel right when you're one that's always listening while the other shares.
might seem a little foolish at times.

i cant sort it out somehow and i've been going in circles.
perhaps it's time to lower its importance and snap out of it.

RECESS WEEK!!
very timely.
thank God for his grace for the past 6 weeks.
it really carried me through every single day and night.

time to catch up on my sleep!

had internal critique as the last lesson of the day.

that made me ponder about how sometimes being just vague is the method of instruction and passing down of skill and techniques.
(though being constantly vague will definitely leave the people around u deluded)

perhaps we've all been set in a 'spoonfed' environment where every single thing that we do is bounded by certain 'test & proven' methods.

to the extent that taking a risk to try seem somewhat redundant or even pointless.

is that really the way to go for seek education?
is it really wholesome?

i guess some really can't be bothered about the quality as long as we're able to eventually attain that degree or certification.(and find a stable job)

ironic it might seem.


alright random reflection aside.

i am so tired of being distracted, esp when i have a deadline to meet.

the last project for this first half sem of my aki journey is going to be due on thursday.
and my mind is still wandering all over, except on the project.

i am definitely looking for a time of rest in recess week!




the pictures that i have been using as sources of inspiration.
sleepy mind is not functioning normally already.
(i really love the mac ability to copy just a certain section of the web page, photo, words, e.t.c.)
cool!

:)

the deep frustration

there's something left unspoken and unrealized.

is it something that i shouldnt be feeling? i wont reckon so.

disconnectedness.

how long can this actually last?

breakthrough in my thinking.

for the first time:

i've headed back to school at eleven in the night.
staying up all the way till six in the morning before i totally KO.

survived one full day of lectures n tutorials plus more lantern making time.

all i can say thank God for his supernatural strength and wonderful group mates.

okay my 'almost dead' body is beckoning me to head straight to my comfy bed.

life can be so interesting.

summary of the past two days: deprived of sleep, coffee, macdonalds, more coffee, mild insanity, and haha coffee again.
alright before i suffer from caffeine poisoning.

after the first presentation for history tutorial, the tutor's comments really got me interested to find out more information about the thought process of Le Corbusier and the fellow architects.It is pretty captivating in a sense.


sometimes, we tend to neglect the importance of communication.
to trust and to share.
is viable for a just one side initiative only?
it might get a tad too exhausting and before long the relationship might just falter away.

a brand new week awaits!
was just counting the number of weeks that have passed since the start of school.
and it has already been 4 weeks!
haha
thank God for the rest over the weekend, since the assignment is somewhat less demanding. and making lantern is definitely more meaning and somewhat motivating compared to just abstract art.

oh well, i am still too literal.

the takeaway for the weekend - to persevere on despite of all that might go on.


i need His grace and mercy to help me step out each new step.


random: found this picture on flickr while brainstorming for ideas.

another late night (or early morning staying up) to be precise.
felt rather inefficient with my pace of work.
tend to be so easily distracted with surfing the net (even it meant to read google news repeatedly)

haha life has changed so dramatically for me.
no doubt it's extremely draining, but yet somewhat interesting and evoke a deeper satisfaction within.
still adjusting to being forced to stay home on weekends and to be more freed up during the weekdays.
having to turn down appointments, or to rush work like now so i can make time to go out on sun.

it's definitely still the transition phrase, so i sincerely hope people around pardon me.

after 3 weeks of school, i am left to ponder and question about so many issues.
i kept asking myself, is this the limit?
can i still go further and think deeper?
so many times, we all tend to just look at things at the surface and attempt to rationalize them.
neglecting the fact that it holds more purpose or meaning when we actually take a little more time to look into it and to pay more attention to it.

sidetrack: after spending so much time in school and all, makes me feel a little detached from the outside world. (a sacrifice perhaps?)
but i do remind myself constantly it's the balance that matters.
and to set priorities into all that i am doing.

haha cant help it but design school has urged me to organise my life and to set my "literal" mind into thinking "abstract"

alrights, it's time to catch up on my sleep.



the end of human strength, is the beginning of God's grace and power
i cant comprehend all the actions, but God is the focus.

it's the start of the third week of this new lease of life.

it has definitely opened my eyes to the world of art. and how design is really so much more abstract and intriguing, as i suppose it to be.

it has surely not been smooth sailing, but i am really giving it my best shot.
though at times, it might seem as though not all will stand on your side to encourage u on.
i am thankful for the true friends.

in our education system, we're often so trained to just analyse ideas and things on the surface and that's it.
but now i am introduced to the idea to question and challenge the facts, to set new boundaries and to expound on your own concept.
it is impressive and interesting to learn without being spoon-fed with the facts and formulas.
to discover everything for yourself.

i need to renew my mindset, and learn to see beyond the literal.
to truly fit into the shoes of a designer.

i feel like some fine art student for a moment.

sidetrack: i m really in awe of the ADM building in NTU, though i've worked there for the good half of the year. i've never entered it's premises, and all i can say sde definitely need a revamp. our shabby, non conducive environment.


i am reminded of my own limits and to trust in his infinite wisdom.

there are sometimes that i would wish to find out, but yet i am afraid to uncover the truth.
uncertainty might seem like the next best option.

till i gain that courage. and that affirmation within.

here i am at 3.52am in the morning.

at the second quadrant of my mega a1 size paper drawing.

and hooray, i am drawing straight lines.(not trying to be sarcastic here)

oh well, my mind's 80% percent shut down and i cant even manage to draw for more than 30minutes.

i wanna head straight to bed, but somehow i know that will be my greatest regret when i wake up tml morning.(oops i meant this morning)

alright, i know i shouldnt be online.

perhaps if i can be drawing something like this in a year's time?

haha