is the dream all worth the sacrifice.

in the pursue of something, a goal, an ambition.

a hope for a change.

but along the way, we'll get tripped over. fall flat in our faces

slightly bruised, start crying perhaps.

the strong desire to just throw in the towel.

only know at such times, i seek no personal advices from anyone.

but just pray.

remind myself what is the promise.

even if it tarry, it will surely come to pass.

after yesterday's criticism about my model in comparison with the rest.

i do know there's lots of room for improvement.

the effort (which i previously thought was great) is still insufficient.

not that looking forward to the release of results, just trusting for a chance to advance.

keep trying. again and again. and again.

after repeated encounters with failures and obstacles, things would definitely seem rather helpless.

and that's probably the most tempting time to just throw in the towel, and attempt to convince oneself that you would excel better in some other aspect.

just reminded that it will always be insufficient if i try to live using my own strength, relying on my own abilities. it seems now that it's just struggling to stay afloat.

learn to depend on His strength, and realize that all that you've been doing is not a given.

i will never have chosen this path without first taking the first step to trust.

'where would i be today, without you?'

every extra day is a bonus, every new opportunity an added blessing.

learning to treasure all that i have been given.

'hope does not disappoint'