coming to an end woohoo

woohoo...well i m already taking it like its over...but well only left with one paper
looking back cant help but feel so grateful that i survived so long
hahas..i understand now why people said As are the hardest obstacle to cross in life..
on a lighter note..
i need to get a few presents and cards
which means going out
how am i gonna survive till prom?..
guess it will be soon that i will bid bye to normal life and hideaway in bushes on some offshore island...ok just joking..know wont be that terrible..
freedom with challenges?..
that's how i m feeling now..
like seeing people react n change..sometimes make me feel so helpless
perhaps a human's heart will be toughest to comprehend
hmm...but well most important is not to give up on God..
haha..think my blog need massive changes..been looking the same..
hope i'll be able to find howL's album in Taiwan..
hmv only has one shelf of korean music?!?
gotta plan my finances well or i'll be broke before end of the month
going off...enjoy holis people..
haha

random but nice videos

found Howl's song for goong...
woah....he can really sing..
the song is called aeng mu sae..which is parrot!?! in korean
haha
okie.just to take a breather..
back to mugging

an unhealthy encounter

today was really a terrible day...except the dinner and housewarming...which was nice..haha
had hiccups from after lunch all the way till like suppertime
feel like my stomach is totally bloated...can't even eat much.
hai..my childhood sickness is acting up again
please dun even have a relapse in the near future...
oh well..
counting down to like 18 or 19 days more..
yeah
we can all finish this!

Baccalaureate!

well...its official...school has ended..holis has started and examinations are yet to come..
oh..i m getting into the trying to be ignorant bout what's going on again..
time flew by..and wow..i finished two years of JC...
it seem like yesterdae when i first step into that strange looking big blue gate
but all i can say is AC transformed me so totally!..i would never be what i am..without all the ups and DOWNS..
so u guys mug hard too..dun give up..
some recollection and snapshots..
sorrie bout the previous red bold entry..wasnt furious or something
haha


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blogger is having some wierd problem.i had to copy the link twice from webshots..
phew..can check the rest from the album link..
yeah..
a touch from God and life will never be the same again..
how true is it when u experience it for yourself..
back to piles of notes n case studys

the haze and all that hazard

well...its time to catch on my poor little blog
school's been pretty usual..the wake up stick your head into endless tasks
that constant need and want to cry for help
your friends around making life seem much more colourful
i'll survive..i mean overcome this
hahas
even when i cant see him, when i cant feel him..i'll trust his heart..
isnt that simple and yet hard at the same time?but believe me u will see your world in a much lighter tone if u just let go and let God =)
perhaps...some people i know are getting cranky..or maybe just enveloped into their own world..
with no else on their minds
they act differently..show their discontent
i m seriously taken aback..
u mean all along u've been feeling this?..but i only know it when my two years are drawing to a close
gosh..well..its never too late i guess
something are just never meant to work out the way i want or the way the other person wants
i m just saddened
found chasing car's vid on youtube..a really catchy n yet slow song..
ignore the mv..it makes no sense..hahas
just finished econs hw...time to sleep =P

new ipod new generation

josong hamnida (pardon me)
but the new ipod really look wow...!!! isnt it?
hahas..i m no really a 'tech gizmos person'
but i m really surprised how fast apple works
presenting ipod nano 2nd generation with double the battery life..=)

old age crisis...wicked

how is it possible that children leave their mother which spent so many painstaking years to raise them up leave her at some hospice..and indirectly leaving her to die
gosh
but it is happening..
first day of school..marks the start of 7 more gruelling weeks to go..
with his grace i'll tide over..

"world tallest man-made structure" CN Tower in Canada..
it still beats all skyscrapers and most communication tower though it was built way back in 1972
thats really wow..

very pretty picture of Sea Hawk Hotel in Japan..
it looks so seamlessly fitted into the night sky =)

passion for life

well..found lots of interesting stuff online these few days..ok..
so shall just post what i found..haha
first..google earth or something like that is so cool..realize i can zoom satellite images of any part of the earth..like for Singapore's case...until i can see the roof of indoor stadium..wow..thats technology!!
caught the movie 'The Host' recently...okie..went for it and sorta persuaded my good old dong saeh's and noonas (its korean for my older sister and younger brothers and sisters) to go watch it...well..end up i was the only one getting scared...gosh..how embarrassing..

ok...going back to reality...holidays are ending and school's starting..quite sadly...
hai..ok..know the first day of school will definitely wake me up from this deep slumber..its time to get cracking..not much time left!
dance masquerade was really different...didnt know that latin dance involves high heels..
feels more like ballroom dancing..fellowship was great..everyone felt so lighthearted
learnt something today
at many times..things and people even those whom we love, trust...care about will change..or simply remove themselves from ur life..
its is never easy to cover up the gaps of hurt they have left in your mind and heart..
but there is only one thing u can do
and that is to move on!..refocus..and find back something or someone else that can enlarge to fill that empty space
cheers people..life is so much more =)

"my hiding place"

'you are my strength oh God, you'll uphold me
you are my shield oh God, you'll protect me'
you are my hiding place

Excuse me?

i am so not in the right mood to write anything..
ears burning...body feeling so grrrh
it always make me feel so gross..and yes i mean GROSSED out on the inside when people that you know for so long..and despite all that you've done..they or should i say only someone actually never appreciated it
shall stop elaborating....in case i m persecuted for spreading propaganda and trying to gain sympathy..as if i needed any
"chill irwin"
come on...we have all grown up...and that means putting your childishness far away..
YES..we would still commit small mistakes at certain times....but we should continue to try make ourselves better..don't we?
from this point on..i see who are my true friends
putting that aside..had a lots of fun this week...maybe its just the after exams feeling
ok just gonna post up pictures..=)


SEPTEMBER BLAST!!

2 weeks of "help me!..ok its exams"

wow..its already past two weeks...todae seem like its so far away from the day i embarked on this terrible journey...
haha...actually its just prelims...a pretty stressing word to hear by itself
yup...just glad i managed to survive till todae..=)
throughout the whole exams was really just struggling from one paper to the next
was quite obvious i am unprepared...could i have done more?
anyway..thank God for giving me the strength..know the results wont be that fantastic..but i really tried my best
haha..ok time for happier stuff
the whole prelims seem to have disrupted my life so much..till the extent i cant remember what i would normally be doing without papers..memory loss?!?
ok i m growing old....er
went for cell group yesterday..its was really different
had some taiwanese visitors and i realize how poor our chinese standard is..me included..
hahas..had to think like so long to translate some part of the message into chinese..
okie embarassing but i wrote it in hanyu pinyin...
oops =(
everything around seem to be changing..people's attitudes towards life..things that go around..
sometimes things seem simply bleak and cold..probably its just the effects of prelims..
guess its just how complex human minds can be..its just seem so impossible to grasp what the other party is thinking
i have made a decision..to move on..though its not easy...
but i know thats the way he wanna me to go..
i need to keep up..hang on..yup =)

some random picture i found..somewhere..think it was jeanie's photo album..but its cool

hahas..we've all grown so much from then..

i need to remind myself i still need to study..there's still monday..

was talking to some secondary school friends here and there..

just to realize how complicated their friendships can be..hai

jiayou ok..all these things that are not meant to be will just fade away..

"we're living our life for God..not money..definitely not for man"

ok time for three areas of revamp in my life...haha..my post prelims goals

Spiritual...Social...and of course wardrobe..

yup..

i want to say

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

such a simple song to bring out the deepest love
yup..EXAMS!!!!!

pre-prelims last words

todae's studying was really perfect...can really focus..while not totally isolating ourselves
i have no idea why there's some form of void within me..like there's something lacking
perharps i know why..and i should face it up
choose wisely..been telling myself that countless times...
hahas..
"I DARE YOU TO MOVE"
am i ready?..
okies...all in all..i muz get down to praying and committing..
no point living life the way i wanna..its the way he wanna
back to mug
i muz survive
do people spent more than a few minutes to think before a decision or do they just act irrationally and call that follow your heart?how meaningless and foolish can

Ecclesiastes 3:

v3 A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to lose.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
15 Whatever exists today and whatever will exist in the future has already existed in the past. For God calls each event back in its turn.

even just reading this again...keeps me all positive and encouraged..that whatever happens...has already happened...and God is in control...he's in control...no matter how messed things may seem..WOW..thanks for that Lord..
midway through pq...so time consuming!

when the music fades

love's beautiful...so beautiful..thats how the song goes..but many times how tough is it to believe in that?
dun actually wanna type this entry.....but if i don't i might never be able
how do someone that bring u joy...also bring u trouble..pain at the very next moment
well thats what i have now
perharps it is was just that i have been running in rounds and rounds..
just like on the track..temporarily distracted by the sights and feel of joy..friendships...
but now i realized i am back to the starting point
that i haven moved a single bit off that round track
was it my fault?..or my choice?
WHY?
is it that my friends are so insecure....
they think i think too much
they say i am too sensitive..
but is it too much to ask of them just to be my friend..and be there for each other at anytime...anywhere..no matter wat situation we're facing..or what mood we are in
all the silent whispers fill my mind..it gets me down..
hmm..
parents are constantly not on good terms..i became the target for stress release..they nagged..over the smallest issue..they lecture over every single small bit
i nearly thought i would become mentally unsound after all this
but thank God for being there
"through the darkest hour..the deepest valley..i cried for help..
with a warm embrace..and a word of comfort...he broke through the dark and picked me up"

i am older!!

well..time flies and i think i have isolated my blog successfully for about a month?...
hahas..just short of forgetting that i still keep a blog..
well..hahas..
anyway..its already past july 18th..and i got alot to say
still remember on sat...i went for jc pm at a cgl's house
truthfully, was a little reluctant and pretty no mood to go
but was reminded that God will touch pple at times when they dun feel like praising, praying or worship
never regret..and can still rmb how He encouraged me to go on with new strength
"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" =P
went marina square unknowingly with joseph
thanks buddies plus jem and john for the wallet..
really hope we'll have time to be out together again

sun was church...hahas...know i can just go on bout how good healing service was
jl came too..hey..hope u're getting used to everything..including the "rock" praise?
hahas...after that was meetup with the usual pos pals..

hooray..okies..they're really v nice to have sorta organised a day out..
okie...time for the more not so glam fact
we took almost 2 hours to settle on the place to eat....meanwhile we walked heeren...several rounds
and cine many rounds aimlessly..
went suki got the glasses of water...realized buffet hrs over
gosh..went galilee..decided..its kinda ex
so thank God..finally we went that hk restaurant "coffee-shop"
style..i LIKE!! =P ok pardon the oldness inside me
i can never say how much thanks to u girls and guys for brightening up my life during pos..and now my everyday...=)

WIFEBANDS =)











back to school....knowing the my clique is up to no good..
i come mentally prepared =)
hahas...actually it isnt anything scary..they love me too much
emm..okie..just kidding
thanks for nescafe...ok..really shocking..lots of tidbits..junk =)
starting to promote junk food diet..plus that brown shirt
i need a jacket..comfirmed =)

the little red box..need no elaboration = PERV

take a look at pamela..haha
















marche...i laughed my hardest..till i almost hugged the lampost oops =)










































my 18th bdae presents =)=)=) thanks to all of u
















THE END

[ at the end, i have learnt so much for the past year...learn to love..to choose..to cry..to pray
to stand up when i feel like slipping]
"we all gotta live in self confidence....if we ourselves is not even secured bout the people we have in our lives...what more will the friends feel themselves"
yup...hey..exams comin!
ok random

after some time

hey..i m back..well..guess my blog missed me
so hahas..
ok must tell myself enough
the holidays are over now..and its back to school..
looking back..i think the holis were really fulfilling...
with emerge, outreaches..chalet =P
and many others..
i have forgotten bout work..maybe just for awhile..
really thank God for lettin me go through all the ups and downs...although many times i would be pretty annoyed and feeling empty inside..
haiz..but he works in ways i can never comprehend..
he have indeed held me through it all
"many are called but few are chosen"
thats something that pst said todae..that still ring in my mind
wow..thats so right..like we are called but who's really up to it to stand up for the challenge?
todae's service was just simply powerful..though many missed it
and the overall mood was not good..pple missing here and there
served for communion and nearly dropped the trays coz i was left to hold for one sub arena
hahas..
miss fellowshipping with the usher friends
issac served first time todae!!
ermm herm.."mr..can find the newest bibles?" haha
continue to jiayou k..i'll wake up earlier next time..
happy birthday jialing
know i didnt do much but just wanna u to have a most blessed year ahead k..
yup..=)
ok that was random..
its really time to pack up all the fun and excitement and start settling down to study
hahas...ya..like 5 more weeks?..ok..
before i forget..karmen..i already checked the weather forecast..clear sunny days ahead..so dun need to bring the umbrella out k?..cheers and u can do it de
ok..oh ya..heard brazil and england lost..thats real tragic and super unexpected..
now left with the less famous teams and prob most pple wont thinking they would see during finals..
hahas..random again
yup..

"all things can be consumed, but not all are beneficial"
so are friends..

need somebody

the past week been really tiring and yet fulfilling
the amount of work is continually piling and i dun really see much time to actually sit down and start getting down on it
God help me!!!!
OkIEs...i need to tell myself to focus the last week
todae just bought something..again..
alot of thoughts running through my mind
listening to sun's album right now
the mood suits in seamlessly
its time to make a change in my everyday..
not going to go by just living at the lowest
or just aimlessly

decisions

how we look at ourselves......our lives are moulded...pushed in left and right centre
sometimes that person who u thought cares for u...seem to fade away in a shift...
something missing.....