josong hamnida (pardon me)
but the new ipod really look wow...!!! isnt it?
hahas..i m no really a 'tech gizmos person'
but i m really surprised how fast apple works
presenting ipod nano 2nd generation with double the battery life..=)
Sunday, September 17, 2006
new ipod new generation
josong hamnida (pardon me)
but the new ipod really look wow...!!! isnt it?
hahas..i m no really a 'tech gizmos person'
but i m really surprised how fast apple works
presenting ipod nano 2nd generation with double the battery life..=)
Monday, September 11, 2006
old age crisis...wicked
how is it possible that children leave their mother which spent so many painstaking years to raise them up leave her at some hospice..and indirectly leaving her to die
gosh
but it is happening..
first day of school..marks the start of 7 more gruelling weeks to go..
with his grace i'll tide over..
"world tallest man-made structure" CN Tower in Canada..
it still beats all skyscrapers and most communication tower though it was built way back in 1972
thats really wow..
gosh
but it is happening..
first day of school..marks the start of 7 more gruelling weeks to go..
with his grace i'll tide over..
"world tallest man-made structure" CN Tower in Canada..
it still beats all skyscrapers and most communication tower though it was built way back in 1972
thats really wow..
Saturday, September 9, 2006
Friday, September 8, 2006
passion for life
well..found lots of interesting stuff online these few days..ok..
so shall just post what i found..haha
first..google earth or something like that is so cool..realize i can zoom satellite images of any part of the earth..like for Singapore's case...until i can see the roof of indoor stadium..wow..thats technology!!
caught the movie 'The Host' recently...okie..went for it and sorta persuaded my good old dong saeh's and noonas (its korean for my older sister and younger brothers and sisters) to go watch it...well..end up i was the only one getting scared...gosh..how embarrassing..
ok...going back to reality...holidays are ending and school's starting..quite sadly...
hai..ok..know the first day of school will definitely wake me up from this deep slumber..its time to get cracking..not much time left!
dance masquerade was really different...didnt know that latin dance involves high heels..
feels more like ballroom dancing..fellowship was great..everyone felt so lighthearted
learnt something today
at many times..things and people even those whom we love, trust...care about will change..or simply remove themselves from ur life..
its is never easy to cover up the gaps of hurt they have left in your mind and heart..
but there is only one thing u can do
and that is to move on!..refocus..and find back something or someone else that can enlarge to fill that empty space
cheers people..life is so much more =)
so shall just post what i found..haha
first..google earth or something like that is so cool..realize i can zoom satellite images of any part of the earth..like for Singapore's case...until i can see the roof of indoor stadium..wow..thats technology!!
caught the movie 'The Host' recently...okie..went for it and sorta persuaded my good old dong saeh's and noonas (its korean for my older sister and younger brothers and sisters) to go watch it...well..end up i was the only one getting scared...gosh..how embarrassing..
ok...going back to reality...holidays are ending and school's starting..quite sadly...
hai..ok..know the first day of school will definitely wake me up from this deep slumber..its time to get cracking..not much time left!
dance masquerade was really different...didnt know that latin dance involves high heels..
feels more like ballroom dancing..fellowship was great..everyone felt so lighthearted
learnt something today
at many times..things and people even those whom we love, trust...care about will change..or simply remove themselves from ur life..
its is never easy to cover up the gaps of hurt they have left in your mind and heart..
but there is only one thing u can do
and that is to move on!..refocus..and find back something or someone else that can enlarge to fill that empty space
cheers people..life is so much more =)
Tuesday, September 5, 2006
"my hiding place"
'you are my strength oh God, you'll uphold me
you are my shield oh God, you'll protect me'
you are my hiding place
you are my shield oh God, you'll protect me'
you are my hiding place
Saturday, September 2, 2006
Excuse me?
i am so not in the right mood to write anything..
ears burning...body feeling so grrrh
it always make me feel so gross..and yes i mean GROSSED out on the inside when people that you know for so long..and despite all that you've done..they or should i say only someone actually never appreciated it
shall stop elaborating....in case i m persecuted for spreading propaganda and trying to gain sympathy..as if i needed any
"chill irwin"
come on...we have all grown up...and that means putting your childishness far away..
YES..we would still commit small mistakes at certain times....but we should continue to try make ourselves better..don't we?
from this point on..i see who are my true friends
putting that aside..had a lots of fun this week...maybe its just the after exams feeling
ok just gonna post up pictures..=)
SEPTEMBER BLAST!!
ears burning...body feeling so grrrh
it always make me feel so gross..and yes i mean GROSSED out on the inside when people that you know for so long..and despite all that you've done..they or should i say only someone actually never appreciated it
shall stop elaborating....in case i m persecuted for spreading propaganda and trying to gain sympathy..as if i needed any
"chill irwin"
come on...we have all grown up...and that means putting your childishness far away..
YES..we would still commit small mistakes at certain times....but we should continue to try make ourselves better..don't we?
from this point on..i see who are my true friends
putting that aside..had a lots of fun this week...maybe its just the after exams feeling
ok just gonna post up pictures..=)
SEPTEMBER BLAST!!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
2 weeks of "help me!..ok its exams"
wow..its already past two weeks...todae seem like its so far away from the day i embarked on this terrible journey...
haha...actually its just prelims...a pretty stressing word to hear by itself
yup...just glad i managed to survive till todae..=)
throughout the whole exams was really just struggling from one paper to the next
was quite obvious i am unprepared...could i have done more?
anyway..thank God for giving me the strength..know the results wont be that fantastic..but i really tried my best
haha..ok time for happier stuff
the whole prelims seem to have disrupted my life so much..till the extent i cant remember what i would normally be doing without papers..memory loss?!?
ok i m growing old....er
went for cell group yesterday..its was really different
had some taiwanese visitors and i realize how poor our chinese standard is..me included..
hahas..had to think like so long to translate some part of the message into chinese..
okie embarassing but i wrote it in hanyu pinyin...
oops =(
everything around seem to be changing..people's attitudes towards life..things that go around..
sometimes things seem simply bleak and cold..probably its just the effects of prelims..
guess its just how complex human minds can be..its just seem so impossible to grasp what the other party is thinking
i have made a decision..to move on..though its not easy...
but i know thats the way he wanna me to go..
i need to keep up..hang on..yup =)
haha...actually its just prelims...a pretty stressing word to hear by itself
yup...just glad i managed to survive till todae..=)
throughout the whole exams was really just struggling from one paper to the next
was quite obvious i am unprepared...could i have done more?
anyway..thank God for giving me the strength..know the results wont be that fantastic..but i really tried my best
haha..ok time for happier stuff
the whole prelims seem to have disrupted my life so much..till the extent i cant remember what i would normally be doing without papers..memory loss?!?
ok i m growing old....er
went for cell group yesterday..its was really different
had some taiwanese visitors and i realize how poor our chinese standard is..me included..
hahas..had to think like so long to translate some part of the message into chinese..
okie embarassing but i wrote it in hanyu pinyin...
oops =(
everything around seem to be changing..people's attitudes towards life..things that go around..
sometimes things seem simply bleak and cold..probably its just the effects of prelims..
guess its just how complex human minds can be..its just seem so impossible to grasp what the other party is thinking
i have made a decision..to move on..though its not easy...
but i know thats the way he wanna me to go..
i need to keep up..hang on..yup =)
some random picture i found..somewhere..think it was jeanie's photo album..but its cool
hahas..we've all grown so much from then..
i need to remind myself i still need to study..there's still monday..
was talking to some secondary school friends here and there..
just to realize how complicated their friendships can be..hai
jiayou ok..all these things that are not meant to be will just fade away..
"we're living our life for God..not money..definitely not for man"
ok time for three areas of revamp in my life...haha..my post prelims goals
Spiritual...Social...and of course wardrobe..
yup..
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i want to say
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
such a simple song to bring out the deepest love
yup..EXAMS!!!!!
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
such a simple song to bring out the deepest love
yup..EXAMS!!!!!
Monday, August 7, 2006
pre-prelims last words
todae's studying was really perfect...can really focus..while not totally isolating ourselves
i have no idea why there's some form of void within me..like there's something lacking
perharps i know why..and i should face it up
choose wisely..been telling myself that countless times...
hahas..
"I DARE YOU TO MOVE"
am i ready?..
okies...all in all..i muz get down to praying and committing..
no point living life the way i wanna..its the way he wanna
back to mug
i muz survive
do people spent more than a few minutes to think before a decision or do they just act irrationally and call that follow your heart?how meaningless and foolish can
i have no idea why there's some form of void within me..like there's something lacking
perharps i know why..and i should face it up
choose wisely..been telling myself that countless times...
hahas..
"I DARE YOU TO MOVE"
am i ready?..
okies...all in all..i muz get down to praying and committing..
no point living life the way i wanna..its the way he wanna
back to mug
i muz survive
do people spent more than a few minutes to think before a decision or do they just act irrationally and call that follow your heart?how meaningless and foolish can
Saturday, August 5, 2006
Ecclesiastes 3:
v3 A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to lose.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
15 Whatever exists today and whatever will exist in the future has already existed in the past. For God calls each event back in its turn.
even just reading this again...keeps me all positive and encouraged..that whatever happens...has already happened...and God is in control...he's in control...no matter how messed things may seem..WOW..thanks for that Lord..
midway through pq...so time consuming!
v3 A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to lose.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
15 Whatever exists today and whatever will exist in the future has already existed in the past. For God calls each event back in its turn.
even just reading this again...keeps me all positive and encouraged..that whatever happens...has already happened...and God is in control...he's in control...no matter how messed things may seem..WOW..thanks for that Lord..
midway through pq...so time consuming!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
when the music fades
love's beautiful...so beautiful..thats how the song goes..but many times how tough is it to believe in that?
dun actually wanna type this entry.....but if i don't i might never be able
how do someone that bring u joy...also bring u trouble..pain at the very next moment
well thats what i have now
perharps it is was just that i have been running in rounds and rounds..
just like on the track..temporarily distracted by the sights and feel of joy..friendships...
but now i realized i am back to the starting point
that i haven moved a single bit off that round track
was it my fault?..or my choice?
WHY?
is it that my friends are so insecure....
they think i think too much
they say i am too sensitive..
but is it too much to ask of them just to be my friend..and be there for each other at anytime...anywhere..no matter wat situation we're facing..or what mood we are in
all the silent whispers fill my mind..it gets me down..
hmm..
parents are constantly not on good terms..i became the target for stress release..they nagged..over the smallest issue..they lecture over every single small bit
i nearly thought i would become mentally unsound after all this
but thank God for being there
"through the darkest hour..the deepest valley..i cried for help..
with a warm embrace..and a word of comfort...he broke through the dark and picked me up"
dun actually wanna type this entry.....but if i don't i might never be able
how do someone that bring u joy...also bring u trouble..pain at the very next moment
well thats what i have now
perharps it is was just that i have been running in rounds and rounds..
just like on the track..temporarily distracted by the sights and feel of joy..friendships...
but now i realized i am back to the starting point
that i haven moved a single bit off that round track
was it my fault?..or my choice?
WHY?
is it that my friends are so insecure....
they think i think too much
they say i am too sensitive..
but is it too much to ask of them just to be my friend..and be there for each other at anytime...anywhere..no matter wat situation we're facing..or what mood we are in
all the silent whispers fill my mind..it gets me down..
hmm..
parents are constantly not on good terms..i became the target for stress release..they nagged..over the smallest issue..they lecture over every single small bit
i nearly thought i would become mentally unsound after all this
but thank God for being there
"through the darkest hour..the deepest valley..i cried for help..
with a warm embrace..and a word of comfort...he broke through the dark and picked me up"
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
i am older!!
well..time flies and i think i have isolated my blog successfully for about a month?...
hahas..just short of forgetting that i still keep a blog..
well..hahas..
anyway..its already past july 18th..and i got alot to say
still remember on sat...i went for jc pm at a cgl's house
truthfully, was a little reluctant and pretty no mood to go
but was reminded that God will touch pple at times when they dun feel like praising, praying or worship
never regret..and can still rmb how He encouraged me to go on with new strength
"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" =P
went marina square unknowingly with joseph
thanks buddies plus jem and john for the wallet..
really hope we'll have time to be out together again
sun was church...hahas...know i can just go on bout how good healing service was
jl came too..hey..hope u're getting used to everything..including the "rock" praise?
hahas...after that was meetup with the usual pos pals..
hooray..okies..they're really v nice to have sorta organised a day out..
okie...time for the more not so glam fact
we took almost 2 hours to settle on the place to eat....meanwhile we walked heeren...several rounds
and cine many rounds aimlessly..
went suki got the glasses of water...realized buffet hrs over
gosh..went galilee..decided..its kinda ex
so thank God..finally we went that hk restaurant "coffee-shop"
style..i LIKE!! =P ok pardon the oldness inside me
i can never say how much thanks to u girls and guys for brightening up my life during pos..and now my everyday...=)
WIFEBANDS =)
back to school....knowing the my clique is up to no good..
i come mentally prepared =)
hahas...actually it isnt anything scary..they love me too much
emm..okie..just kidding
thanks for nescafe...ok..really shocking..lots of tidbits..junk =)
starting to promote junk food diet..plus that brown shirt
i need a jacket..comfirmed =)
take a look at pamela..haha
marche...i laughed my hardest..till i almost hugged the lampost oops =)
my 18th bdae presents =)=)=) thanks to all of u
THE END
[ at the end, i have learnt so much for the past year...learn to love..to choose..to cry..to pray
to stand up when i feel like slipping]
"we all gotta live in self confidence....if we ourselves is not even secured bout the people we have in our lives...what more will the friends feel themselves"
yup...hey..exams comin!
ok random
hahas..just short of forgetting that i still keep a blog..
well..hahas..
anyway..its already past july 18th..and i got alot to say
still remember on sat...i went for jc pm at a cgl's house
truthfully, was a little reluctant and pretty no mood to go
but was reminded that God will touch pple at times when they dun feel like praising, praying or worship
never regret..and can still rmb how He encouraged me to go on with new strength
"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" =P
went marina square unknowingly with joseph
thanks buddies plus jem and john for the wallet..
really hope we'll have time to be out together again
sun was church...hahas...know i can just go on bout how good healing service was
jl came too..hey..hope u're getting used to everything..including the "rock" praise?
hahas...after that was meetup with the usual pos pals..
hooray..okies..they're really v nice to have sorta organised a day out..
okie...time for the more not so glam fact
we took almost 2 hours to settle on the place to eat....meanwhile we walked heeren...several rounds
and cine many rounds aimlessly..
went suki got the glasses of water...realized buffet hrs over
gosh..went galilee..decided..its kinda ex
so thank God..finally we went that hk restaurant "coffee-shop"
style..i LIKE!! =P ok pardon the oldness inside me
i can never say how much thanks to u girls and guys for brightening up my life during pos..and now my everyday...=)
WIFEBANDS =)
back to school....knowing the my clique is up to no good..
i come mentally prepared =)
hahas...actually it isnt anything scary..they love me too much
emm..okie..just kidding
thanks for nescafe...ok..really shocking..lots of tidbits..junk =)
starting to promote junk food diet..plus that brown shirt
i need a jacket..comfirmed =)
the little red box..need no elaboration = PERV
take a look at pamela..haha
marche...i laughed my hardest..till i almost hugged the lampost oops =)
my 18th bdae presents =)=)=) thanks to all of u
THE END
[ at the end, i have learnt so much for the past year...learn to love..to choose..to cry..to pray
to stand up when i feel like slipping]
"we all gotta live in self confidence....if we ourselves is not even secured bout the people we have in our lives...what more will the friends feel themselves"
yup...hey..exams comin!
ok random
Sunday, July 2, 2006
after some time
hey..i m back..well..guess my blog missed me
so hahas..
ok must tell myself enough
the holidays are over now..and its back to school..
looking back..i think the holis were really fulfilling...
with emerge, outreaches..chalet =P
and many others..
i have forgotten bout work..maybe just for awhile..
really thank God for lettin me go through all the ups and downs...although many times i would be pretty annoyed and feeling empty inside..
haiz..but he works in ways i can never comprehend..
he have indeed held me through it all
"many are called but few are chosen"
thats something that pst said todae..that still ring in my mind
wow..thats so right..like we are called but who's really up to it to stand up for the challenge?
todae's service was just simply powerful..though many missed it
and the overall mood was not good..pple missing here and there
served for communion and nearly dropped the trays coz i was left to hold for one sub arena
hahas..
miss fellowshipping with the usher friends
issac served first time todae!!
ermm herm.."mr..can find the newest bibles?" haha
continue to jiayou k..i'll wake up earlier next time..
happy birthday jialing
know i didnt do much but just wanna u to have a most blessed year ahead k..
yup..=)
ok that was random..
its really time to pack up all the fun and excitement and start settling down to study
hahas...ya..like 5 more weeks?..ok..
before i forget..karmen..i already checked the weather forecast..clear sunny days ahead..so dun need to bring the umbrella out k?..cheers and u can do it de
ok..oh ya..heard brazil and england lost..thats real tragic and super unexpected..
now left with the less famous teams and prob most pple wont thinking they would see during finals..
hahas..random again
yup..
"all things can be consumed, but not all are beneficial"
so are friends..
so hahas..
ok must tell myself enough
the holidays are over now..and its back to school..
looking back..i think the holis were really fulfilling...
with emerge, outreaches..chalet =P
and many others..
i have forgotten bout work..maybe just for awhile..
really thank God for lettin me go through all the ups and downs...although many times i would be pretty annoyed and feeling empty inside..
haiz..but he works in ways i can never comprehend..
he have indeed held me through it all
"many are called but few are chosen"
thats something that pst said todae..that still ring in my mind
wow..thats so right..like we are called but who's really up to it to stand up for the challenge?
todae's service was just simply powerful..though many missed it
and the overall mood was not good..pple missing here and there
served for communion and nearly dropped the trays coz i was left to hold for one sub arena
hahas..
miss fellowshipping with the usher friends
issac served first time todae!!
ermm herm.."mr..can find the newest bibles?" haha
continue to jiayou k..i'll wake up earlier next time..
happy birthday jialing
know i didnt do much but just wanna u to have a most blessed year ahead k..
yup..=)
ok that was random..
its really time to pack up all the fun and excitement and start settling down to study
hahas...ya..like 5 more weeks?..ok..
before i forget..karmen..i already checked the weather forecast..clear sunny days ahead..so dun need to bring the umbrella out k?..cheers and u can do it de
ok..oh ya..heard brazil and england lost..thats real tragic and super unexpected..
now left with the less famous teams and prob most pple wont thinking they would see during finals..
hahas..random again
yup..
"all things can be consumed, but not all are beneficial"
so are friends..
Sunday, June 18, 2006
need somebody
the past week been really tiring and yet fulfilling
the amount of work is continually piling and i dun really see much time to actually sit down and start getting down on it
God help me!!!!
OkIEs...i need to tell myself to focus the last week
todae just bought something..again..
alot of thoughts running through my mind
listening to sun's album right now
the mood suits in seamlessly
its time to make a change in my everyday..
not going to go by just living at the lowest
or just aimlessly
the amount of work is continually piling and i dun really see much time to actually sit down and start getting down on it
God help me!!!!
OkIEs...i need to tell myself to focus the last week
todae just bought something..again..
alot of thoughts running through my mind
listening to sun's album right now
the mood suits in seamlessly
its time to make a change in my everyday..
not going to go by just living at the lowest
or just aimlessly
Friday, June 16, 2006
decisions
how we look at ourselves......our lives are moulded...pushed in left and right centre
sometimes that person who u thought cares for u...seem to fade away in a shift...
something missing.....
sometimes that person who u thought cares for u...seem to fade away in a shift...
something missing.....
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
pulau ubin here i come
cycle..thats all i wanted...and meet up with the cg members and friends..
hahas
ended up waking late..been having very crazy days since monday..hahas
guess its rare to be alone..so just enjoying it till friday
cycling at ubin can only be summed up as=' UNIQUE AND THRILLING'
all the fast sped round the bends...gears falling over...crawling upslope..that really tires me out
my most loved part-downslope..
just let go and relax..
hahas...how simple right?
pretty worn out now..gotta get some rest..sleep
pray for a deeper breakthrough
finding back that purpose
hahas
ended up waking late..been having very crazy days since monday..hahas
guess its rare to be alone..so just enjoying it till friday
cycling at ubin can only be summed up as=' UNIQUE AND THRILLING'
all the fast sped round the bends...gears falling over...crawling upslope..that really tires me out
my most loved part-downslope..
just let go and relax..
hahas...how simple right?
pretty worn out now..gotta get some rest..sleep
pray for a deeper breakthrough
finding back that purpose
Friday, June 2, 2006
now is the time for us to shine
there goes the final and the start of jc cluster on the big expo hall 8 stage just like 5 hours ago
"now is the time for us to shine"
hahas...and off we go...one two down up..down toss 7.....8....oooooh hoooo
hahas..
todae is a once in a lifetime experience
after like 3 full months of training..we finally reached the first destination for POS
in case u're wondering whats that....pple who are close should noe bout cheerlead
just reflecting about how i actually ended up joining..when my mind was not really made up..or should i say i had a hard time learning to trust
hahas..but God works in numerous special ways..
he placed me here for a purpose..
in just roughly 2minutes and 23 seconds...we completed everything
PRAISE GOD...most of the stunts and dance went up..everybody put in their 120% percent
hahas...we found that supernatural strength
just gonna post up some pics and head straight for bed...
its just day one of emerge..EXPECT greater move of God in the days to come..
pictures below are meant just for really good memories..so pple involved pls pardon me
hahas =P
"now is the time for us to shine"
hahas...and off we go...one two down up..down toss 7.....8....oooooh hoooo
hahas..
todae is a once in a lifetime experience
after like 3 full months of training..we finally reached the first destination for POS
in case u're wondering whats that....pple who are close should noe bout cheerlead
just reflecting about how i actually ended up joining..when my mind was not really made up..or should i say i had a hard time learning to trust
hahas..but God works in numerous special ways..
he placed me here for a purpose..
in just roughly 2minutes and 23 seconds...we completed everything
PRAISE GOD...most of the stunts and dance went up..everybody put in their 120% percent
hahas...we found that supernatural strength
just gonna post up some pics and head straight for bed...
its just day one of emerge..EXPECT greater move of God in the days to come..
pictures below are meant just for really good memories..so pple involved pls pardon me
hahas =P
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
emergiee
hahas...well time flies..and looking back for the past months..
i can only say "thank you God for being faithful"
i have really grown alot through this period...like learning to manage lots of tasks and commitments
getting used to talking to different groups of people in a day
go through some dry and lonely patches without friends here n there
hahas..just came home..and wanted to try to practice more for dance..
okies..look kinda funny
glad my mom didnt laugh..hahahas
met jeanie for lunch at long john...yeah..
haven like meet up like this for a long long time..hahas
its like two more days to emerge..and truthfully i cant contain the excitement within
pos really gets more totally "cant stop the beat"
all i can say is that after each training..though i m worn out..
i still feel fuller in my heart..like as i just had a faith enlargement..=)
anyway..take care krystal tang..if u're gonna read this...rest well..pray and we're gonna make things happen on 1st june
looking forward the holis..i can see that its really packed..emerge.zoo..chalet..lessons..and all that
woo hoo..but makes me anticipate even more
time to pray up..read up his Word...and get stronger
hahas...at many times..its inevitably to feel kinda not understood..no matter what i do and think or say..friends...
perharps...its really normal for pple to come...close..and then draw away..its not within my control i guess
though its really terrible or should i say gross to feel so clearly avoided..i have yet to know what's exactly wrong..
missed out todae's clique outing..but guess the clique still had fun
for karmen:
remember no matter your friends are always here for u...
though at many times the way we care is being expressed
we all love you...
all humans are not perfect..we do commit that mistakes
but whats more important is to pick yourself up...renew your mind..
and wow..u're coming on stronger than before..never looking back..
whats done now is better than being hidden for later which will hurt even more
and i pray that your friendship..will be pure..and true friends' love
yup nitez
sorrie for making you wait..
tml's last preview..meeting donovon in the morn...buy WHITE shoes..ahhas
see ya pple
i can only say "thank you God for being faithful"
i have really grown alot through this period...like learning to manage lots of tasks and commitments
getting used to talking to different groups of people in a day
go through some dry and lonely patches without friends here n there
hahas..just came home..and wanted to try to practice more for dance..
okies..look kinda funny
glad my mom didnt laugh..hahahas
met jeanie for lunch at long john...yeah..
haven like meet up like this for a long long time..hahas
its like two more days to emerge..and truthfully i cant contain the excitement within
pos really gets more totally "cant stop the beat"
all i can say is that after each training..though i m worn out..
i still feel fuller in my heart..like as i just had a faith enlargement..=)
anyway..take care krystal tang..if u're gonna read this...rest well..pray and we're gonna make things happen on 1st june
looking forward the holis..i can see that its really packed..emerge.zoo..chalet..lessons..and all that
woo hoo..but makes me anticipate even more
time to pray up..read up his Word...and get stronger
hahas...at many times..its inevitably to feel kinda not understood..no matter what i do and think or say..friends...
perharps...its really normal for pple to come...close..and then draw away..its not within my control i guess
though its really terrible or should i say gross to feel so clearly avoided..i have yet to know what's exactly wrong..
missed out todae's clique outing..but guess the clique still had fun
for karmen:
remember no matter your friends are always here for u...
though at many times the way we care is being expressed
we all love you...
all humans are not perfect..we do commit that mistakes
but whats more important is to pick yourself up...renew your mind..
and wow..u're coming on stronger than before..never looking back..
whats done now is better than being hidden for later which will hurt even more
and i pray that your friendship..will be pure..and true friends' love
yup nitez
sorrie for making you wait..
tml's last preview..meeting donovon in the morn...buy WHITE shoes..ahhas
see ya pple
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
when i seem to say "i cant go on"
the name was spoken..the consequences were clear..
i didnt expect it
i left
cold the nite suddenly seem..extreme sadness gripped me..
i respect the decision but i m human..
looking backing..i would definitely feel that hurt rising from deep within
my mp3 silently accompanied me..even as waves fof disappointment coz of this and wondering "if i did so badly" hits me
no will to move on..
but i have to..can i?..
the four walls seem to be moving on...yes i know enlarge..but i have lost all forms of strength to do that now..
8 hours have passed and the feeling ever so strong..
its just something i m passionate about
let a miracle come before its all too late
i didnt expect it
i left
cold the nite suddenly seem..extreme sadness gripped me..
i respect the decision but i m human..
looking backing..i would definitely feel that hurt rising from deep within
my mp3 silently accompanied me..even as waves fof disappointment coz of this and wondering "if i did so badly" hits me
no will to move on..
but i have to..can i?..
the four walls seem to be moving on...yes i know enlarge..but i have lost all forms of strength to do that now..
8 hours have passed and the feeling ever so strong..
its just something i m passionate about
let a miracle come before its all too late
Saturday, May 13, 2006
a deeper sense of longing...
my past week just flew by with all the pos trainings...and though i am really challenged physically..coz i m so darn tired now...but yet...i have found something that i can bring on in my life
that is why in the first place there is a God..and why i chose him and trust Him..i m enlarging my capacity
many times i m so drained from sch and all that by the time i reach the place for training..i m half dead..not in the mood to interact or to perfect my moves...hahas..but i really messed up some of them
i realized i lack something in my life
received a call the other day...that didnt exactly make the nite a good one
sometimes i do wonder what others are expecting..maybe its just because they're not me..so they won't understand what i have to go through.."no matter how hard they say they do"
made me reflect my past few years in ministry what have i done..have i progressed?..
life's gettin complicated with so many commitments..but i m no longer the one that just bow down to difficulties and trials..been through lots
fri's service and pst phil msg explained all these
i need to pray alot more...
my quiet time has been diminishing...and my mood been like going from normal..to slightly lower and now a little cranky
yucks..ewww i dun like this feeling
ok no more procrastination gonna start the prayer life going..thank God for keeping me most of the time awake during service..i was silently saying to God i m too tired..please just take me to heaven..but obviously its not the time yet..
issac please jiayou too?...we're not running this race alone..we got all the brothers n sisters under his family no matter how not close we might seem...
our hearts are for each other..
my life's been segregating into smaller bits and pieces..
Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under heaven"
thank you for this promise that never changes that u're always under control whatsoever the circumstances
todae's sat which means its time to stay home to catch up on work..miss my friends in school..but will just see them on mon..the long lost family time is also todae..hahas..wierd but i miss my mom n dad..together with my bros..
i m stepping out and breaking through..
that is why in the first place there is a God..and why i chose him and trust Him..i m enlarging my capacity
many times i m so drained from sch and all that by the time i reach the place for training..i m half dead..not in the mood to interact or to perfect my moves...hahas..but i really messed up some of them
i realized i lack something in my life
received a call the other day...that didnt exactly make the nite a good one
sometimes i do wonder what others are expecting..maybe its just because they're not me..so they won't understand what i have to go through.."no matter how hard they say they do"
made me reflect my past few years in ministry what have i done..have i progressed?..
life's gettin complicated with so many commitments..but i m no longer the one that just bow down to difficulties and trials..been through lots
fri's service and pst phil msg explained all these
i need to pray alot more...
my quiet time has been diminishing...and my mood been like going from normal..to slightly lower and now a little cranky
yucks..ewww i dun like this feeling
ok no more procrastination gonna start the prayer life going..thank God for keeping me most of the time awake during service..i was silently saying to God i m too tired..please just take me to heaven..but obviously its not the time yet..
issac please jiayou too?...we're not running this race alone..we got all the brothers n sisters under his family no matter how not close we might seem...
our hearts are for each other..
my life's been segregating into smaller bits and pieces..
Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under heaven"
thank you for this promise that never changes that u're always under control whatsoever the circumstances
todae's sat which means its time to stay home to catch up on work..miss my friends in school..but will just see them on mon..the long lost family time is also todae..hahas..wierd but i miss my mom n dad..together with my bros..
i m stepping out and breaking through..
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