back dated post.

made my first online purchase!

feel like a goon-doo now that i look back, waiting so anxiously for the package to arrive.

note: threadless can reward me with some online credit for promoting them.haha

going to self declare a day off very soon. i need that.

you can plan all you want.
if it is not meant to happen, it just won't come to pass.

the past couple of days passed by so quickly. and june is coming to an end.
the current season: contemplate about the past, present, and the things to come.

the friendships and relationships in my life seems to be taking on a change.
for many, they are condensing, becoming stronger and evidently proving to be good company.

while some might seem to falter away, even as time illuminates and unravels the true character.

and incompatibility as friends exist. (incompatibility is clearly not restricted to just couples)

well, it is not possible and definitely unwise to be buddies with everyone, and transform into just another social butterfly.

saying hi to one, and bye to another in the next second.

being true in your conversations and treatment of others, will inevitably allow others to open up their lives to you, on accord of your sincerity.

learning to hear and trust, not to depend on my own understanding
to see beyond the circumstances, to love and care.

took a pause, sort out the minute things in life.

a good break for a greater race ahead.

life can be so short, and it's so crucial to embrace every moment of it.

although there are still many tasks like e.g

visiting the library, taking out a nice book and DRAW!

the break is still considered worthwhile.


an update on the latest white gadgets cravings:

Macbook white and white HTC magic!


(disclaimer:it's just wishful thinking on my part)


a week to focus, and get back to the basics.
upcoming freshmen orientation camp, and school is gonna start!

thank you for a wonderful 6 months :)

title: tuesday blues

woke up with puffy eyes and a ultra strong urge to stay in bed.
but after psycho-ing myself how much a day absent from work would cost me.
i dragged myself out of the house.

haha.

was trying v hard to keep awake to iron my shirt while listening to my mom ranting about the family that lives a floor above my flat.
(with their overaged son who constantly jumps up and down the whole day till my living room lights vibrate and i feared for my family's lives-seriously!)
and that the family's mother even defended his son, saying he's just an active young boy.

amidst all of that hoo-hah in the morning
i was in my own world, wondering to myself.
how often we let the circumstances around us define how we feel about a certain friend or person.

that is the time we need to trust the person's heart.

oh well.a super-uber random post.
to keep myself alive today
haha

A bruised reed He will not break.
And smoking flax He will not quench,
Till he send forth justice to victory.

what matters the most?

what do you know and what do you not know?

is it just the stubborn me or am i suppose to react this way?

how much do u really understand?

who is your friend?

all that is said and done.

nothing else.

i am better off alone.

treasure the loved ones around you.
every single moment can be so precious and might pass us by if we do not cherish it.

tired.

work seems to be like the biggest time-occupying activity of the week.
(as opposed to sleep)

needing a good rest and some entertainment!

.....

Worship:

body, mind and spirit all engaged in one.

the emotions totally involved.

wow.

blame it on the cheesecake from rive gauche..(is it spelt this way?)
though it was so yummy and really cheesy.
i am left with a stomachache today.
:(

shall treasure the time off to catch up on my sleep, shows, and bible reading.

oh no still isn't sure where exactly my cell group gonna cycle to for tomorrow's outing.

destination: unknown?

haha.
it is really about whether you want to snap out of the "we're not so close" mindset, to spend more time with the people that truly matters to you.

alright.

something that i was pondering over the weekend..



what do we do when we're faced with a certain sense of uncertainty about the future and pressured to give in and give up?



do we just call it quits and throw in the towel?

or do we fight to hang on, while we attempt to search for the real purpose once again?.



perhaps many would just sink into their circumstances, and let emotions take over.

i am definitely not excluded.

i've been in the thinking mood lately.


alright, anyway the weekend went by pretty slowly.

and

i finally went running...on the threadmill.

time to build up my stamina!

the happiest moment of the weekend.
my mom picking out that top as her gift on mothers' day.
thank you for loving me though i have always been attempting to do the things that make u upset (constantly).
for teaching me the rights and wrongs in life.
and the principle that whatever effort i put in, it will determine the outcome of my life.
thank God for putting you in my life, to be who you are to me!


not forgetting to wish Joseph a happy 21st birthday as well!!

I am still waiting for mine to arrive.haha


in this moment of transition, from work to eventually school.
uncertainties abound,
but I am constantly encouraged by Him reminding me that He's watching over.

His promise of unconditional love just spurs me on :)

received my photo card driving license today.
no idea why but the euphoria started to arise within.
and i started to admire the card for a few minutes.

know that sounds pretty dumb.. but it is definitely hard work to earn it
so ya all the best for all those who're taking their practical test soon!

i sincerely hope the dream of being able to just drive around freely and be able to drive out for suppers would come to pass quickly!
(dread paying for long night rider journeys and exorbitant midnite cab fares home.)

felt that a new phrase of life has begun.

and it dawns upon me that the start of school is really drawing near. and it is certainly time for me to start cracking.
to visit the library to borrow more materials. to stop procrastinating and set time aside to do the drawings...blah blah blah.

i need to have a more creative mind!



cool geometry.

Felt His presence so strongly.

Thank you for your love.

" Freely you gave it all for us, surrendered your life upon the cross.
Great is your love, poured out for all...."

and the song goes on and on.

I am struggling to make up that 1000 words for the scholarship application essay.
sincerely and really do not have so much to say about my personal interest in design.
The exhausted body is not making things better.

ahh!

"My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever"

that i must keep in mind...

goodbye bukit batok and ubi!
i had spent more than enough hours of my life there.
literally sweat it out for the test today, the sun was shining so brightly.
i was perspiring madly.
and it's FINALLY time to ditch that 'L' and put on that big bright orange triangle plates.
Praise God for creating a miracle, out of something that seems humanly impossible!
Your thoughts are surely higher than mine!
:)

my dream car! (now i can have the right to think about this)


woooh. :)

What a great way to start off work on a Monday morning, realizing that your outlook account has just expired last friday.
And no one was informed to extend it for you.

well.the so called efficient and dynamic computer system can't speak up for this.
realized how crippled I am without my email account.

but on the other hand, I am left without a choice, but to draft work mails in Word. and devote some time to checking of my personal mail and reading of the news.
haha. a self declared break then.

the hustle and bustle of life for the past two weeks had really left me with little time to contemplate and think through certain issues and to find the time to exercise, sleep and draw etc.

driving test is coming up on wednesday, and I've been telling God please let this be the final test that i'm going to take! "I am going to pass this time round!"

"do not fear, for I am with you..." I can drive the bends and weave safely through the traffic!

haha
alright. back to 'work'.

happy birthday boys.

macau express? once is enough.

late night hk cafe supper business.

plus POPeyes (according to changi airport info hotline)
greeting cheerful and smiling kids.
etc.

the exciting long weekend.
a renewed purpose.
a driven passion.

greater days ahead!

a cut above the rest.

Our light is joyfulness, positive attitude, revelation & paths to live life successfully.

-phil pringle

why is it at certain times some people would tend to read too much into the words they hear?
and start to react with their emotions over their logic.

yes everyone has their work to do and their role to play.
you're definitely not the only one doing everything.
disappointed.

Surprised that i managed to stay home after knocking off work for the past two days.
Or rather it's funny how circumstances change to make that happen.
Enjoyed the time to draw and go online (which is something that won't happen except from 8 to 5)

the top 3 things that i need to complete ASAP
1) pass driving
2) proficiency in playing guitar
3) (haven't thought of it yet)

haha

"Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full"

random:walt disney concert hall in L.A. , USA (love how irregular the exteriors are)

After today, came to the sudden realization that I can live my life without being apologetic constantly.
That I am facing all the problems so the greater self within can emerge!
My heart feels a tad lighter and freed up.
Thank you God :)

Just a random old song, that is still as touching as ever.

sometimes I just feel like running away from the crowd.

to a place where I am by myself.

Oh well, I can't do anything except to hang on.

This mundane routine is not going to last forever.

I was left reflecting upon this question today
"What is thing that drive us to go on in life every single day?"

Is it the wealth that we'll gather from the work we do?
or is it the friends, classmates, colleagues that we'll get to meet that keep us going?
our love for our children, spouse or family members?
or is it just solely to satisfy our own desires?

this can be such a simple basic question that many of us would fail to ask ourselves.
even for myself, when the world seems to revolve at such a quick pace.
I would stop at my step and ask myself.

and the answer would always be the same.
without God, I would not be where I am today.
the countless times, through the darkest nights, He was there to comfort n strengthen me:)

okay a new working week awaits.
just like how i was joking with my colleague what we should say on Mondays
"Oh God, it's monday!"

:)

had an exciting start of the week

didn't expect things all to fall into place, and in this sequence.

started off with singing k, with fellow pos friends on mon nite.

though a little worn out after work, we all had our fill of fun

realized that it comes to singing k, the smaller the group, the higher the chance u'll get your turn to sing.

haha

took off on wed.

couldn't resist the idea of night cycling..

well didn't regret that choice too.

even though i was totally shagged out, in a daze, just like the rest.

(too bad i didn't manage to capture the unglam pics on my cam)

the feeling of having the cool breeze rustle through your hair, while u cycle through the dark n quiet CBD area, never ever imagined i can do that.

it was really an experience :)

ok reality hits and work resumes tml!

shall let the pictures do the talking

good nite!

super backdated post. no idea what is wrong with blogger or this post.
kept having error after i've uploaded it

morning!
using my email to blog for the first time.
made it through last night.though i was half regretting arranging an outing
but all of us had fun, to just lay aside all the concerns we have.
and just sing our hearts out (doesn't matter if it is in tune or not)

haha.taken a day off tomorrow.
there is just so much i hope to accomplish tml.
i might be better off catching on my sleep!
good day people :)

the start of a new working week.
MONDAY.
is the most dreaded day for many working adults.

thankfully, I am not feeling that dread
maybe I've become numb to that feeling.
but as I recall.this definitely beats booking in.
the very least I won't be feeling so anxious and down by the start of sunday.
haha

life is a very funny story, when we look back at it.
our actions and behaviour in the past seem so illogical now that we've come to think of them.
a question by a friend triggered my thoughts
"Am I getting too occupied and busy with the work of others?"
I would say yes and no.
Yes to the fact that I've to work in order to survive and maintain financial independence.
No that it is not just only for the work for others.
I enjoy all that I'm doing, and that they do a service to others and that blessed my own life as well.
but that reminds me that I haven't had much time for my fav pastime - to visit the library, borrow a few archi books and go home to sketch and read, over coffee.

Life has to hold a purpose.
and we have to be very sure that we're not just assuming our purposes

Life with a companion.

It is too much to ask for a holiday before the start of school?

had an extremely exhausting day
realized the importance of my colleague.
and how everything actually works in her presence
without her i'm left to face all the unusual and at times demanding questions from the fellow prof and their secretaries.

oh well can't deny the fact that I am a just temp staff
but after knowing about the so-called "increase in remuneration"
i was left questioning about the extra effort that i've put in ever since my another colleague resigned.
was all of that meant deserving of just a little more pay, with no changes in any benefits or leave?
felt quite disappointed.
wanted to just say "oh well, then goodbye!"
but i know that if i did that on impulse, I would definitely regret it later.

alright at least I am still dutifully employed.
after hearing from a friend that she's going to watch tv to relax after her paper was over today
I would wonder what was I all busy for?

for the hope n vision to see the children grow in their knowledge, academics and well-being?
that is but of course.
and that keeps me going.to see those that are less competent to actually progress step by step.
gives me all the meaning n satisfaction in life.

a random thought came to my mind.
and I really yearn for another nice, relaxed and long break
(overseas of course!)

I want to sit on the A380!

had the most fulfilling weekend after a long busy period
was quite relieved i could get my mind off work at least 48 hours

and i am not so restricted about what i can do.
now i can truly understand what it actually means to pamper myself with the simple pleasures of life.
getting a nice haircut at the salon.
though it hurts the pocket.
by in exchange for the experience.it's rather worthwhile
(though i hope i am able to survive without any haircut for at least 2 months)
and I am avoiding ten dollars cut as much as i can
(considering that I've had several bad experiences during NS days)

sunday had come to an end.
and monday has arrived.
time to settle down and start the week well :)
have a great wk ahead people!

it is time to prioritize, put aside agendas
and to come back to the fervent life of prayer.

as i sat on my bed.
attempting to play my guitar.
listening to "my God reigns, His love will never fail me. my God reigns, He's ruling over all..."
just there and then i am reminded -
i know i can trust in Him for whatever that is taking place in my life.
whatever that is to come.

woah. a whole night just passes by so quickly.
especially when you're preoccupied by work - preparation of worksheets n worksheets.

I do feel like a worksheet machine now. haha but now that I am complaining.
but come to reflect on the past few weeks' It is really His grace that I've managed to make it till now. and still alive and well.

although physically drained.but refreshed within. a sense of accomplishment made all the tiredness fade into the background.

I guess that I've learn to handle and act upon things in a more mature manner. ever since.army life has taken the back seat. never imagine everything to be moving so fast. but well my life is like a car speeding now.definitely past the maximum speed. (no fines please!)

the recent attention on relationships and all the differences between men n women.
has left me wondering and thinking, while understanding that we're made to be interestingly different.
but yet. inseparable from one another.
opposites attract madly?

before i forget:
a few short term goals i must achieve.by june.
1) play the guitar considerably well
2) save up $xxxx amount (the most difficult)
3) exercise once per week (swim, walk, gym, whatsoever)
4) consistent quiet time.

alright.my bed beckons. good night!

oh yes. s46's picture at minds' cafe! and I conclude there and then that I have poor explaining skills and rather slow reaction. sigh.

the mid week reflection
just missed my television show.
had an eventful first 3 days of the week
"early in the morning, i'll arise and seek your face"
how true is this especially for the past days of morning prayer.
feel slightly more tired physically.
but the spirit being refreshed weighs that out.
it's good to start a day knowing that u have Him by your side :)

"do not grow weary, while doing good. for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart"
this is for all those who are feeling the strain of daily life.keep hanging on!

sometimes human relations can all so superficial and fragile.
it is just the circumstance and situations that are holding us together.
even if we do not wish for it to be.
alright.some back-dated photos.
before they're thrown to the folder and left untouched.

the weekend is here again!
but this time it promises to be a very different one.
with all that activities lined up.
meetup with friends, tutoring, comfort driving centre, gym, service, CNY visitation!
woo hoo :)
thank you God for the weekends!

a sudden twist of fate. life can just topple over suddenly. hate the fact that bad things always present itself one after another.

first the shocking food poisoning (shall not elaborate further) but thank you jt n xt. i can't imagine how i could i survive without both of u all around.

then now the driving test.just this morning.FAIL. ahh! though i did stumble at certain points in time, but I really did feel pretty confident. oh well. behind the mask of friendliness n concern, the tester was busy tapping away on the laptop.
only when the moment arrived for the result slip to be given i was taken aback.

he was awarding marks freely..only if the test was judging by the no of points i've gotten.
and i was certain some of the mistakes i didn't commit, despite being careful while driving.

sometimes i wonder why we would have to tolerate the difference in "not perfect"human standards. what one would view as an error, might not even be noticed by another.

on a brighter note. chinese new year has been great so far. the pictures can testify :)

a week has passed by after an unforgettable week of holiday
reality has slowly started to sink in.
hah
still not very used to the every day routine of work.
coupled with other commitments..
secretly wishing i can just go on another holiday.
haven't had the time to do many of the things that interest me
like
drawing.reading up on buildings or even go for a swim!
ahh.
"we can be so busy working out our own lives, not realizing who or what we're working for"
so glad cny's coming.
but as the years passed, i've seemed to lose part of my childhood enthusiasm for the new year.
haha
oh well.i am still looking forward to the drinks and new year goodies:)

happy 2009!
since this is the first blog entry of the year.
and to start the year right

it would be great to start a recount of the trip to taiwan

it was a dream to come true, to be able to spend the first week of the brand new year in taiwan
though i've been there several times already, just within the last 2 years.
somehow i just can't get enough of that place.
the weather was ideal, cold..but not to the extent of freezing
i was able to put on layers of clothes without worrying about sweating in them.
haha
actually we all looked a little inappropriately dressed as compared to the locals
their fashion sense definitely "wow-ed" me..
hah..alot of the people on the street seem to be some superstar of some sort.
or probably it's just ximenting fashion thats all
and i wonder why the two guys behind were staring at us.
(perhaps they immediately realized we were tourists)
oh well..
some reasons why i love taiwan

milk tea and instant beef noodles
probably under the strong influence of army
our second day farm stay...in the outback of taiwan

the attempt to make tang-yuan (that turn out in odd shapes and sizes)
and to learn how to spin the top.
haha.and i unknowingly won the second prize for the competition.
my top kept spinning for only like 5 seconds? :P

the super small piglet!
it was just running all over the place...
there are simply too many pictures that i've taken.
so just gonna post the nicer ones up.
guess this must be the most relaxed holiday i've been to.
since the past few overseas trips weren't considered as holiday
waking up every day, knowing that the day would definitely be relaxed n fun.
woo hoo.
we sang k till almost 3am..
ended up getting chased by a freaky lady on the scooter thereafter.
but the ktv building still left me in awe.
that taiwanese actually love to sing k so much.that they'll need 11 storeys of ktv rooms to suffice!
haha







it was a much needed break from the fast tempo of life here..
when we were there, everything seem to go on at such a slow pace.
time to breathe and reflect.
to find new strength to carry on.even stronger:)
ok i can't wait for the next holiday already.haha
but after all, these couldn't possibly happen without my best friends jem, zy n joseph.
they are the ones that made the whole trip so memorable.
2009 is gonna be the best year yet :)

even as the days pass by.
things around taking place at such a fast rate.
my head is spinning.
i just wanna go away.
to somewhere far away.
with nothing on my mind.
well the truth is i m just days away from it.
must hang in there.

the images of the week that have came and gone.
heartwarming reunions.
intriguing moments.
life is great when u're able to do the things that u have interest in.
and being able to stay out late for the weekend.
:)
oh well.still.nothing beats a good holiday

for the past three weeks.
ever since i've started working.
life has took on a 180 degrees turn
suddenly everything seems to be so fast paced.
found myself constantly having to reply endless sms-es..calls.
whatsoever
or has the past one year ten month converted me into a non-civilian?
i really wonder
perhaps life as it is now..is really very different..and at times demanding.
both mentally and physically.
i need a good long break..
time to relax and breathe in the fresh air.
slowly sensing that the busyness of life has started to take a toll on my mind
became increasing absent-minded.
gosh
frustrated..at my own self.
oh boy

God please come and guide the footsteps of my path
give me strength
and enlarge my capacity.
"who's hands are these..holding my trapeze.."

i have no idea what possessed me to delete my whole "my documents"
i am in total state of lost now.

ahhh!
oh well.better go sleep.