my first trip to BRUNEI

the last view of temburong














the 40 minutes thrilling ride to the capital (the river looks as wide as what i view as sea)

turning left, turning right.have i moved on?

today was my first day of a supposedly long week of off..and ahem...self applied leave
thought it would be real gd..like hey i m out of camp and its time to catch up with friends
but ended up..i m left stunned and not knowing what's wrong
been feeling a little lost nowadays..
like as if i am not in control of my world..like things just happen and pass me by..without me knowing
cant seem to focus on getting everything done..end up..i screwed it all
all this just led me to becoming more frustrated..
and it doesn't help when friends just dun understand..
PLEASE..i gotta let my YES be a YES, and of course a NO be a NO
never anything in between
i need to get my priorities right
tired
maybe all this will change when i serve till that fateful day
but now i cant stay this way
no matter what..still looking forward to the next 3 days..party a little..let my hair if any down.
n i cant DOTA for nuts..i need lessons for dummies like right now
people in the past seem to fade in my memory
somehow like i actually dun know them well..
people in the present makes me assured
but yet things in the future are uncertain

my not so smooth going mth of ns

well...in continuation to my past entry..things still seem a little lost for me
or should i say i m still feeling lost as to how i can just screwed up so much stuff around
not considering the money i've already lost by paying my salary off to the owner for its overpriced items
oh..my samsung mp3 player finally here..still pretty fascinated by its sound quality and its touch buttons though they can be rather retarded at times..
its a real worthwhile deal i can say
shall post the pic again














pretty!
ok enough bout the tech stuff.
been feeling real frustrated bout things lately....
like the people around me sometimes seem like they dun understand what u gotta go through week after week
how your life just revolve around a regime..and that u practically have no control over when u wanna go out and what u wanna do
i m like sandwiched in the middle..
ahhhh!
all these feelings just kinda exploded within me when i shatter my bunk window today
sounds unbelievable but i caused it
crazy me.
even i passed by dover mrt today..cant help but recall how my life would be as a student..
carrying that little bag skipping along off to home after a long tiring day cramping lecture info into my mind(provided i m awake)..haha
and the endless tutorials that were waiting to be done
life seem so much simpler than..
must we all experience the complexity of life as we grow up?..
silly as it may sound..guess i m still in transition stage
gotten two preloaded songs of SGwannabe and sung si kyung inside the player
real nice songs
tonite's off supposed to be for me come home and enjoy some family company with mooncakes..but things turned out to be i m in my room doing my stuff
feel so guilty for bursting out at them
i need a good rest man..to cure my short term memory and my carelessness

reminded that even as i go through the fires in life..
i need to pray not that the fires be put out but that the fires will melt away all the flaws n impurities within me..
make me purer..=)

a word from above

'Why do you worry?Haven I brought u through worse days when u thought u aint gonna make it..but see for yourself..where are u now?
honor my name..work out the life i have planned for u
you're different from the rest..u got the Holy Spirit in you
I am in control..the earth..skies and seas, they're all mine'
just a short word make my life take on a new turn
circumstances don't change..and probably would never..
but its the person's attitude and heart that does
thats the whole idea

hai:(

My STM is really killing me big time

dun speak...i rather u dun

had a great day of biking..learnt lots
but nite just was draining..
perhaps it would be better if i m not spoken to that way
might not be serious.
but its somehow tough for others to stand in your shoes n look at the world.
feel the strain
oh well
life's just goes on that way
10 more days to the my normal green life
n full weekends
brunei's so ehhh now

shoutout

i hope u all understand...its really that my mind is going on it..but my body is physically breaking down

cycle of depression

whenever i tell myself i can do it..
it just seem so tough
so not the way i want things to end
even as i listen to some emo song on my com
my heart sinks
is there a purpose to all this..what would i learn after all these?
haa..perhaps..endurance for lack of sleep and having a tolerating spirit to other's plain demoralizing comments and a struggle to keep up with a hectic plain idiotic schedule
tell me why do such people exists and such darn meaningless crap have to be carried out
i miss life
i know i cannot stay like this..
He who's in Him is greater than he who's in this world.
i always know














four random faces:)
there's something more

what am i doing exactly?

woke up real early this morning..around 4 am.. kinda looking forward to be going for my first driving course put aside all the inconvenience it brings..like waking up freak early...to take first train to bedok.. having my sat half day burnt....just to complete the whole course...especially when that removes completely my chance to serve in children church tuition with the kids that never failed to cheer up my lowest morale day but who would expect it to bring me even lower.. all the images and expectations of a real bike course.. became more like a terror to me now my body's falling to scrape across the dark cold floor not that i don't wanna face it positively or that i am not prepared enough days in old camp sure prepared me enough knowing that your everyday schedule is just to rush n scramble to complete all the preplanned tasks, given by some 'higher authority' that claims to know best but knows heck how the man feel, that serve to cram every single crap theory n practical lessons into a maximum 12 hours a day.. and the supposedly relaxed paced learning course..became some budget "i throw u lessons n skills...u better pick them up or u'll just stay back n learn till u scrape through" that sucks.. what am i doing now?...should i just watch while the world passes by? its really a struggle to respect authority..especially there's plainly nothing to respect them about just that God placed them over me.. ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
how could such inhumane n sadistic people exists on this earth i don't mind training hard n sweating it out...but the bare minimum those guys could do is to treat us like normal human being with a heart that beats n motivate us to work hard..not use force, threats of burning free time, extra duties..cleaning toilets.. save me.

my old life

my special sun

yawns
for a first time i started crawling out of bed at like 10am or so..
haha:)
feels different
yesterday's FOP was just wow wow...felt that the atmosphere broke through the dullness and receptiveness of past years
spent whole morning starching uniform in case i get barked to death next week..
then off i go..
to bras basah to buy all that i've been wanting to get for months..
the new korean-english dictionary is a definite good buy..
though i m pretty empty in the pocket right now
appreciate time out with my brother lots..:)
ok now time to save up for a mp3...can i like get promoted quick..
i m desperately struggling to not spend all my allowance
















pretty thing!





God please help me to guard my heart..now that i m set free to decide what i wish to do next in my life..
let it not be just me in the decision making..but let everything be for u and that i would follow coz i choose to..:)
there are just some that placed themselves in position for failure but apparently refuse to admit that..oh just let them be

fulfilling wk of 2007

the to be completed shanghai financial tower....
been waiting to see its final look for ages
its outer glass panel looks woah:)
ok back to the week
oh ya..haven upload much pics for a long time
















just pop by to take a shot with wanz
before heading for special ministry..
can really say this time i felt something struggling within so strongly
God let me guard my heart, thoughts and deeds please
let me not fall back into the same old deep hole and waste all this effort
really felt so free after..
backtracking..
sat was first time exp at children church tuition
the kids are real cute..hyperactive..but yet i was really touched by them
i m finally at what i m called to work for..
sat nite was chill out time with joseph
holland v's perfect for that..with a nice coffee..as usual again..
ok time to pack bag again..
hope that i be blessed with a nite out tml!
haha..

[there are many people that come and go in my life..sometimes all that happen so fast even without me realising some had changed..and that no matter how wow friendship in the past was...its probably forgotten..sad but that's life]

sick...stuffed...cooped up

my long long weekend just comes and goes...going..and gone!
haha...but i m grateful for it.
met up with so many people..then joseph's present for me, a simple but effective schedule planner might be the best gift yet..
sorry kok seng!shouldn't have promised that i'll be meeting u to celebrate your bdae..
anyway..happy bdae!:) thanks for being that joy always amidst the dullest moments in life
finally went to see a real doctor today..after attempting to struggle n fight horrendous flu coupled with endless phlegm..haa..ok shall skip the explicit details..
but now the cough syrup's making me all drowsy..
God please heal me!
having just lots of mixed ideas and thoughts running through my mind now
oh ya..thank you all my dear friends for the gifts and wishes for my bdae..really appreciate it!
know that i m going back in camp in less than an hour time..
and i m dreading it
wanna go and fast forward time
wanna do the things i like..just sitting on my table..drawing..buildings..skyscrapers..houses..bridges..whatever..listening to my fav music on my player..just not like schedule planned run my life..and live a 'mindless' everyday
hmm..maybe its just that everyone else is starting school and i m feeling so envious..
well that day would come eventually..
haha..before we get to start carving out our dream..we yearn and say we would do everything we can to make it come to pass..
but when we're actually doing it..we wanna give up so easily..so ironic..
ok i've typed enough mindless thoughts..
bye

love the one u hate?

love your enemies...
the simplest to say but yet always the hardest to do..
haha...guess most people wont know who i m referring to
but its just that old man in camp
gosh..think bout him
i feel so turned off..
well..perhaps he just destroyed my hopes of having a peaceful first birthday in camp
hai..but at least i can still come home and typed it all out..
how i wish i could get out of this messed up environment n head for school
at least i can choose what i wanna do and put in my best..
being back home can mean so much to me now..
seeing that my loved ones round me care for me..
shower me with the love others cant make up for.
i need to remember all these n treasure them lots =)
anyway a big thank you to all friends for bdae wishes..
haha..although i m feeling a little unwell with flu n cough..plus a extra gift of blue-black on my leg after a flag weight of almost a tonne whacked my leg..
i still feel grateful
God please help me to be different n not condemn those that everyone else cant find a reason to love or care about..

the deep within

a month just crept by in a flash...its already july now
june has probably been the most simple but yet troubling month of my ns life
though there wasnt much outfield or hated fast marches
all the new lessons seem to open my views bout ns to a new world
especially having to run so often..and 2.4 is suppose to be like chicken feet now
aft so much long dist running
but intially
i hated all the running..but after all that trainings
thank God that he brought me through so much and i m stronger than ever
sometimes i would be grateful that i m placed at this time, place and situation such that God's ultimate masterplan seem to be such a comfort to me
whenever i m out in green lands..all fully soaked in sweat..questioning myself the purpose of all this shit
he just gently reminds me he's in control..and that all things would work out right for those who love him
all these low valleys make me realized the importance and how awesome He is to me
must we all go through rough patches to learn to appreciate n to love?i m sure there's more than one way to do so
hope that my eg will encourage all those that is ready to give up..
perservere on and u'll see the glimpse of light burning amidst the darkness

internal turmoil

so long haven been able to just freely blog..and just not rush to do everything in the weekend
that was how i thought things would be..for this one week off
but perhaps..not all events would be so heart warming and delightful..
always felt that my parents have changed ever since i have gone into army
they now pick on the slightest thing i do
they rather i stay at home and do nothing..than to go out to catch up with friends
i m scolded for wasting my allowances away..when in actual fact..i m paying it from own "hard earned" peanuts allowance..
they wanna be the director of my life..
yet they cant keep promises
though they're adults...they get so uptight and angry so easily..
almost with little or no provoke
they cant admit their own wrong..and kids are suppose to take the blame.
the week off caused so much tension and turmoil...i seriously wanna go back to camp..
even doing push ups and running till i feel like dying dun feel so stressful
i guess at times certain things i said ain't too edifying..i m sorry bout it..
but it seem so challenging just to enjoy a full day of quality time with parents..
everyone is just bickering here there n everywhere
i wanna break free from this...sometimes i dream of just moving away to a faraway place and live my own life..eat what i like..work hard for my own living..haha
or maybe its just the inner rebel showing?..
my mind swirls whenever i think of it..
i m glad God always reminds me to "honor your parents that you may live a long life"
i need to stick to that
please give me the strength n love from above..i m seriously beaten n cant do it on my own
well time for something happier..
emerge is coming!church's annual youth conference..
know that it would be exciting and is definite to build up my spiritual life..
slept pretty late while waiting for my dad to finish using the com..
by then i was too exhausted to even upload any song into my repaired ZEN..
oh ya..went to help out at pos jc..they're doing a wow job..with a strong dance..cool cheer..they really look outstanding..all the jc cluster fight on!

some last words...=)

went for nus architecture apitude test...was a pretty much nerve wrecking experience..didnt know what to expect..and who to meet!..was just plainly stranded in a sea of happily chatting away people...met rong and xx though..
surprised that xx said hi..
anyway..the two hours in the hall..just reminded me of As..with the numerous rows and the routine of placing your ic on the top right..
making the model was fun..though i had no idea if the 'rocket' thingy i made out of paper fit into the theme..but the theme was odd enough..
then came a picture of kettle..that look like it came right of ikea's catalogue...
describing its qualities in 5 key words left me scratching my head
yeah at least its over..and i didnt had to memorise anything beforehand
had a guys' night out again..with my usual buddies
fish n co..
guess i will definitely miss their company and our crappy conversations bout our school days when i am off
woo hoo..there's no second round of interview for archi..
phew..
looking forward to the flight tonite..but not exactly the outfield..but guess it would be a good experience..
i have been thinking alot now adays..and getting a little paranoid
ahhh.
this past week of sermon..reminded me of something so important..
being on hot pursuit of my dream..
daring to confess and knowing it will come to pass if its within God's will for me
that sure encouraged me tonnes..
ok got to go..and finish packing
meanwhile u guys and girls take care...:)
keep smiling..

emo period

sometimes all the things...people..and the way they behave..
keeps me wondering..are we all leaving under that veil..or cover
that we're so well trained to be flexible enough to take on different roles at different places...times..environment or people?
that sucks...why put up that pretense?
u may fool the whole world but u cant fool yourself..and God for sure..if u believe in Him
perhaps it takes one to be in a situation of restrictions and lack to appreciate the once considered 'little' that he or she has in his or her life...
hai
does it meant to say..all that i know of u was just pure acting?..or i was too oblivious to that..
friday was really good..
never ever felt so ministered in past years' event as compared to this year
think the party will never end....dance awhile longer and u'll know..

fresh into the next phrase of NS

well..things that i dread or love..comes and goes..so is my ns life..
in a flash...hot and rainy tekong days and i am heading straight to a whole new unknown
guess alot of my previous anxiety and worries aren't really needed..
mandai camp is sure interesting..and nice looking
better than the offshore island
ok my first week of recce just passed and i would really say that the commanders made all the difference..
no matter how tough training may be...if the upper level are supportive..u'll have the motivation to fight on..hwaiting!
know rest of my buddies have their share of exp
going taiwan soon...kinda looking forward to it..especially the last two days off!
woo hoo..
sad thing is that i wouldnt be enjoying much of camp facilities and food..
gosh..the food is good..
moving off to another camp for course..
haven seen my jc friends for another week..some others for a month
gotta go for pm now..know it'll be good!
and dinner out with the guys..
ok shall post one pic...
of me without hair..and with cap?..














night out..with jc pals

cheers!

when its time to let go..its never too late
cheers karmen!
there's always someone better..
3 cheers for karmen!hip hip hooray x3
teaching sounds pretty interesting for her..haha

tekong fever

chinese new year just came and go..and before i knew it..
i was already heading back to my tekong chalet..
haha
though this year's cny isnt as exciting compared to previous years..
without my mom's side relatives all gathering at my grandma hse
since it was sold ever since my grandpa passed away
kinda miss that warm and noisy cny day one
nevertheless
still busy indulge myself with lots of food!
cant really eat much..after getting a big swollen left finger
gross.first time i understood the pain of infection..
over the last two nites at camp
as usual..when lights out..my mp3 will light up
listened to all the joyce meyer's podcasts
learnt something so real
jesus died not for us to just survive day by day
as most people do
he died so we can ENJOY..yes enjoy..
our daily lives...constantly believing and having joy in whatever we do or face
i gotta pick that up..
miss the class pple..haven seen most of them for a month or so..
so if anyone who read this and u all are meeting up..please tell me..
ok maybe we'll just meet when As are out..
haha
yeah..service tml =)
pray that this horrible cough and slight fever be gone

happy lunar new year

dear blog i m back after like almost one month plus?
so i guess to wipe the dust away and get things in order...
haha
anyway....time seriously flew by even though i wasnt exactly having fun
life on tekong can just be a tad too mundane and make u feel so screwed up
but nevertheless, i can say that i m getting used to it and slowly enjoying it?..
hmm...boy gotta become man someday
anyway just used up some of my pay to get a zen v plus
woah..its seriously small..














pretty good for the price that i paid
the videos are sharp for such a puny screen
haha..i will remain a creative fan i guess
yup..
gotta go zzz
enjoy the holis people..
hopefully i get to take some pics of my bald head tml..

UOB Plaza

its the third drawing
haha..
ok its bad coz i m sleepy and the uob building seems to be leaning sideways..
anyway..its oub plaza in the background

the first day of 2007

in a flash..i made it through 2006...
and i step straight into the first day of 2007
with rather mixed feelings..both glad his grace and strength supported me through
yet bigger challenges await..
most important thing is i m looking forward..and dashing all the way till the end..
breakaway from all the past..














pretty fireworks at marina bay..we could only see those that flew up to greater heights..
haha..we all went slightly mad..
and totally sticked shoulders to shoulders in citilink mall...never knew it could be this packed


































me, becca and huiling =)


























my countdown buddies






















































becca's photo perfect shoot















a slight flashback for christmas














we crazy people..walking while it drizzled quite heavily, hid under a pullover..tried snapping pictures..oh well.we're mad haha














my dear cousin..at service..
okie...happy new year pple!

reflecting about the future

hmm..its pretty late and i have no idea why arent i going to sleep
perhaps there's just too much going through my mind
read claire's blog and that also set me thinking bout the uni education
haha
though i keep getting attracted to the idea of studying overseas at countries like Korea..
and for once experience the culture and life there
i also know its all but just a dream thats out of proportion
besides the universities in korea offer nothing related to architecture..or maybe even designing
getting into local uni arent gonna be that easy...since there's only one course in nus
and they only take like 100 people?..
guess this is what it meant to be faced with the fear that seem to veil that goal or dream
since there's ns..and results arent out..
there's no point thinking too much..
trust that everything will work out..
ok i m sleepy now
haha

commerzbank frankfurt, germany

random..like what i always say

christmas is over...and all i can say..it is really the best time of the whole year..
though i know all this freedom gonna come to a halt in no time...that doesnt stop me from enjoying the company of friends...cell group..haha..
family..
sometimes when i come to hear of stories of people who are already serving...cant help but feel a alittle flustered..and perhaps worried..
ice cold shower water...huge portions of food..ok this dun sound terrible to most pple i guess..bug filled bunks?!
haha..
ok maybe just a little exaggerated..
oh mandy asked to post drawing..only did another..so here's it
commerzbank in frankfurt, germany
ok blogger beta seems a little cranky..i'll upload it later
met up with debbie when she came back from taiwan..
and as usual....i always seem to make her laugh..sometimes unknowingly..
haha..hey..its been great to catch up..and yeah..
friends forever..thanks lots of the xmas card =P

well...thanksgiving cg really made me thought through alot..like somehow..
my mind and thinking is pretty freed up now..no longer do situations seem so daunting...
yeah..i am under cover...
todae is the brothers day..going out with my younger bro..
hopefully he will find a bag for school..and pass his npcc test..he better!
haha

another trial..

was just thinking back after these past two years..
there's just so much that happen..
how i got cope with all the never ending work and project plus assignments
while not losing my focus on God
but even as the year draws to an end
i come to understand
many times i might have just serve so hard all in vain
i am after God himself..
i cant depend on myself..for my own strength would definitely fail
so many things i cant understand or accept
try and try again
but yet i fall no matter what
sink to some deep pit and question everything
yet reminded that as long as i m following God's will..
stand firm and always choose to do the right thing in God's eyes
not that of others

dun ever leave the presence of God even if it meant to let go of some duties

to find back that first love
doodled on some plain paper..know its a few thousand miles apart from the real thing

its abstract ok
but drawing all these structures..really free up my mind =)

Nord LB. North German State Clearing Bank Building

let's get the party started

woah....in a flash my one week holidays in taiwan ended already..and prom nite
something that i was sorta looking forward to..also..
well..perhaps not everything went on the way that i would expect or hope for it to be..but i really enjoyed myself..
cant escape from the basics..
who say meeting up with guys is gay?..
haha
ok i m pretty worn out..slightly distracted by things going around..
but its only a month or so..so gotta treasure it like i never did for any other time before..and just relax....
i've to admit i cant drink for nuts
no no spare me..
jian ting jiayou if ever you read this..we're all praying for u k..
dun touch other patient's equipment!
ok let the pictures do the talking
















nite markets!something that i would definitely miss














random car?!














national palace musuem..history comes alive..














oyster mee sua..

the thing that made me feel what is commiting suicide all about

love river kaoshiung..gosh..romantic..haha

pacific ocean..total sense of freedom!

oh well..i cant stay there

central ximenting

really love this picture

it seem to reflect the vibrancy of nights in taipei

i wanna go back!

well there's far too many pictures..so will just print the rest

ya..and its all taken by my all slow reaction sony ericsson camera phone

haha

alrite prom update some other day

coming to an end woohoo

woohoo...well i m already taking it like its over...but well only left with one paper
looking back cant help but feel so grateful that i survived so long
hahas..i understand now why people said As are the hardest obstacle to cross in life..
on a lighter note..
i need to get a few presents and cards
which means going out
how am i gonna survive till prom?..
guess it will be soon that i will bid bye to normal life and hideaway in bushes on some offshore island...ok just joking..know wont be that terrible..
freedom with challenges?..
that's how i m feeling now..
like seeing people react n change..sometimes make me feel so helpless
perhaps a human's heart will be toughest to comprehend
hmm...but well most important is not to give up on God..
haha..think my blog need massive changes..been looking the same..
hope i'll be able to find howL's album in Taiwan..
hmv only has one shelf of korean music?!?
gotta plan my finances well or i'll be broke before end of the month
going off...enjoy holis people..
haha

random but nice videos

found Howl's song for goong...
woah....he can really sing..
the song is called aeng mu sae..which is parrot!?! in korean
haha
okie.just to take a breather..
back to mugging

an unhealthy encounter

today was really a terrible day...except the dinner and housewarming...which was nice..haha
had hiccups from after lunch all the way till like suppertime
feel like my stomach is totally bloated...can't even eat much.
hai..my childhood sickness is acting up again
please dun even have a relapse in the near future...
oh well..
counting down to like 18 or 19 days more..
yeah
we can all finish this!

Baccalaureate!

well...its official...school has ended..holis has started and examinations are yet to come..
oh..i m getting into the trying to be ignorant bout what's going on again..
time flew by..and wow..i finished two years of JC...
it seem like yesterdae when i first step into that strange looking big blue gate
but all i can say is AC transformed me so totally!..i would never be what i am..without all the ups and DOWNS..
so u guys mug hard too..dun give up..
some recollection and snapshots..
sorrie bout the previous red bold entry..wasnt furious or something
haha


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blogger is having some wierd problem.i had to copy the link twice from webshots..
phew..can check the rest from the album link..
yeah..
a touch from God and life will never be the same again..
how true is it when u experience it for yourself..
back to piles of notes n case studys

the haze and all that hazard

well...its time to catch on my poor little blog
school's been pretty usual..the wake up stick your head into endless tasks
that constant need and want to cry for help
your friends around making life seem much more colourful
i'll survive..i mean overcome this
hahas
even when i cant see him, when i cant feel him..i'll trust his heart..
isnt that simple and yet hard at the same time?but believe me u will see your world in a much lighter tone if u just let go and let God =)
perhaps...some people i know are getting cranky..or maybe just enveloped into their own world..
with no else on their minds
they act differently..show their discontent
i m seriously taken aback..
u mean all along u've been feeling this?..but i only know it when my two years are drawing to a close
gosh..well..its never too late i guess
something are just never meant to work out the way i want or the way the other person wants
i m just saddened
found chasing car's vid on youtube..a really catchy n yet slow song..
ignore the mv..it makes no sense..hahas
just finished econs hw...time to sleep =P

new ipod new generation

josong hamnida (pardon me)
but the new ipod really look wow...!!! isnt it?
hahas..i m no really a 'tech gizmos person'
but i m really surprised how fast apple works
presenting ipod nano 2nd generation with double the battery life..=)

old age crisis...wicked

how is it possible that children leave their mother which spent so many painstaking years to raise them up leave her at some hospice..and indirectly leaving her to die
gosh
but it is happening..
first day of school..marks the start of 7 more gruelling weeks to go..
with his grace i'll tide over..

"world tallest man-made structure" CN Tower in Canada..
it still beats all skyscrapers and most communication tower though it was built way back in 1972
thats really wow..

very pretty picture of Sea Hawk Hotel in Japan..
it looks so seamlessly fitted into the night sky =)

passion for life

well..found lots of interesting stuff online these few days..ok..
so shall just post what i found..haha
first..google earth or something like that is so cool..realize i can zoom satellite images of any part of the earth..like for Singapore's case...until i can see the roof of indoor stadium..wow..thats technology!!
caught the movie 'The Host' recently...okie..went for it and sorta persuaded my good old dong saeh's and noonas (its korean for my older sister and younger brothers and sisters) to go watch it...well..end up i was the only one getting scared...gosh..how embarrassing..

ok...going back to reality...holidays are ending and school's starting..quite sadly...
hai..ok..know the first day of school will definitely wake me up from this deep slumber..its time to get cracking..not much time left!
dance masquerade was really different...didnt know that latin dance involves high heels..
feels more like ballroom dancing..fellowship was great..everyone felt so lighthearted
learnt something today
at many times..things and people even those whom we love, trust...care about will change..or simply remove themselves from ur life..
its is never easy to cover up the gaps of hurt they have left in your mind and heart..
but there is only one thing u can do
and that is to move on!..refocus..and find back something or someone else that can enlarge to fill that empty space
cheers people..life is so much more =)

"my hiding place"

'you are my strength oh God, you'll uphold me
you are my shield oh God, you'll protect me'
you are my hiding place

Excuse me?

i am so not in the right mood to write anything..
ears burning...body feeling so grrrh
it always make me feel so gross..and yes i mean GROSSED out on the inside when people that you know for so long..and despite all that you've done..they or should i say only someone actually never appreciated it
shall stop elaborating....in case i m persecuted for spreading propaganda and trying to gain sympathy..as if i needed any
"chill irwin"
come on...we have all grown up...and that means putting your childishness far away..
YES..we would still commit small mistakes at certain times....but we should continue to try make ourselves better..don't we?
from this point on..i see who are my true friends
putting that aside..had a lots of fun this week...maybe its just the after exams feeling
ok just gonna post up pictures..=)


SEPTEMBER BLAST!!